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[theunstuffedpepper]

Before & after photos of the floor in the nursery. Holy cow! I should have taken some better photos of the ugly ass pink carpet that we ripped up, which revealed this shotty patchwork mess of wood underneath, but this is good too.

The new floor looks so good!! 😁😁😍

[notababy-babygirl]

MEOW. Otw to Bulacan Ate C nyo. Kakahiya di man lang ako nakapagready for Lola. 😑 Urgh. Sana no alak tonight coz ayoko magdrunkcall please lang. Hahahhaahhagagagago!

[theunstuffedpepper]

BEFORE!

Operation baby nursery is officially (and finally) beginning. This is our third and smallest bedroom, but I think it’ll be fine for the nursery, at least to start him off. This room used to have that god awful salmony-pink carpeting in here and that.. just will not stand any longer. This was our reading nook/home office, but the desk and bookshelf are coming out so lots of baby things can go in.

We spent waaaaay too much at Lowe’s buying laminate flooring and paint and whatnot. Some of the stuff we had purchased two of, because we weren’t *quite sure* which would work best, so good news is that some things will be unopened and returned.

The general plan is to put down sub-flooring and install this cool looking “antique barn wood” laminate. We’re leaving three of the bedroom walls white and painting one wall very light blue/grey — or rather, “lighthouse shadows”, if you prefer.

We’ve installed.. I don’t even know how many floors.. over the course of our home ownership days. Probably installed eight rooms of laminate or hard wood flooring all together between our first home and helping my mother in law re-do the floors in her home, and we also sanded and refinished a wood floor in our first home. Hopefully that means this will go quickly and painlessly, though I’ll be sitting most of it out because, you know, of growing the actual baby, and quarantine reasons. (Though is my husband upstairs right now talking to the laminate flooring, asking one of the planks if it’s warped already? Yes he is.)

Getting excited! 😁

[notababy-babygirl]

Dear Alice Kamatis,

It has been 9years, Nanay. 9years being an angel of God. 9years without you here physically. 9years of loneliness because of the thought that we're not going to be with you.

I can still clearly remember the moments we've shared. Everything. Mula sa paglalagay mo ng diaper sakin nung baby up to grade3 ako, habang sinusuhulan mo ako ng rebisco strawberry. Tapos, nung elem susunduin moko sa school then diretso ng palengke. Pag weekends naman, uuwi ka tas aabangan ka namin bumaba ng tricycle para kuhanin pinamalengke mo sabay hingi ng 5php. HS, andyan ka palagi para saming sessionistas pag may session. Babantayan mo kami para walang mag-maoy. Support ka sa studies ko, at proud na proud ka sa mga achievements ko. College, gabi nako uuwi. Pero hinihintay mo padin ako umuwi para sabay tayo kumain, dahil alam mo na ayoko kumain ng walang kasabay. Ikaw tagabili ko ng mga libro pag short ako sa pera. Hanggang nagkasakit ka nalang, kakaalaga samin. Kakatrabaho para samin.

Kung kailangan ko ulitin lahat ng ginawa ako para sayo, bantayan ka sa hospital, buhatin ka pag kakain, magpalit ng diaper mo, toothbrushan ang pustiso mo, tumakbo sa botika kahit madaling araw, kausapin ka pag gusto mo, kwentuhan ka ng mga paborito mong kwento, kantahan ka pag gusto mo, suklayan ka ng buhok, palitan ka ng damit, paliguan ka sa ospital, at lahat ng bagay ng ginawa ko para sayo, lahat yun kaya kong ulitin, makasama ka lang. :'( Pero dibale nalang, titiisin ko nalang yung lungkot kesa makita ka ulit na nahihirapan.

Natatandaan ko pa, sabi mo nun gusto mo makita sana yung apo mo sakin. Pasensya na Nanay, hanggang ngayon wala padin. Hehehe. :) Okay lang yan. Wala ka eh, walang mag-aalaga. Char.

Mahal na mahal ka namin, Nanay! Until now nalulungkot padin ako. Nasasaktan. Miss na miss na kita. Gusto kong marinig ulit boses mo. Maramdaman yung mga kurot mo. Mayakap ka. Maamoy yung mabango mong kilele at buhok. Makita kang nagwawalis, nagpaplantsa, nagluluto, kumakanta, nagsesermon. Gustong gusto kita makasama. :'( Soon Nanay, magkikita tayo ulit. Alam ko masaya ka na dyan. Masaya ako dahil kasama mo na si Tatay dyan. :* Bantayan mo kami ha? Pati si Lola. ♥ Mahal na mahal ka namin.

Uyyy bongga, angel na si Alice Kamatis. ♥ Bilhan kita ng paborito mo, JOLLIBEE! YEYYYYY! WE LOVE YOU ALICIA. ♥

Isang yakap lang Alice Kamatis. Parang awa mo na. Hirap na hirap ako ngayon. Ikaw kailangan ko. Ikaw gusto kong makita. Ikaw kahinaan ko. At ngayong gabi, hahayaan kong sarili kong umiyak ng umiyak.

[notababy-babygirl]

Ewan. Siguro didivert ko nalang talaga atensyon ko para atleast di ko maisip mga what ifs ko. Hahahhaa kakaloka naman kasi, di na talaga pwede e. Sorry not sorry. Char.

[notababy-babygirl]

One on one with Tiyo. Hindi naman ako ang hinanap nila. Si chi naman. 😅 Medyo bad. Charot!

Ingat ang lahat. Malakas ang bagyo.

[notababy-babygirl]

How can I be this vulnerable. Konting kibot, miss ko agad. Pota ano na. This isn't what I am expecting. Akala ko talaga sanay nako. Pero gaaaaaahd! Sobrang tangang tanga na ba ako sa buhay ko ha? La nako choice ha? Shit ka C. Shit ka talaga!

- pero atleast cutie padin ako sabi ni chi kahit kitang kita pores ko s mga selfie na sinend ko. Good thing padin. Char.

Goodafternoon! And happy Weekends!

[notababy-babygirl]

Gusto kong isipin na baka sa susunod na pagkakataon, ikaw na ang kasama.