#1088horsepowers

[analyticalpest]

Just some thinking... I have come to realize... I have little to no friends. I have my partner.. And one friend local. Though that is deteriorating quickly. All my life I have cut ties without really knowing why. As a kid my family moved just about every two years. Maybe that had something to do with it. It didn't matter if I liked said people a ton or not at all... Anyone who got too close, I would eventually hide from. I was never boycrazy but the boys I did fancy.. Well. It would last a week. Until I was a teen and then a year or so.. Until for one reason or another I would break all contact. Not break up properly. I would just disappear. I remember physically running and hiding from a boy I used to like and my parents told him i was out. This wasn't just romantic relationships though. Soon it spread to what friendships I did have. My best friends as a kid... I would push away with my apathy. My desire to be alone. My friend of ten years I actively told to stop talking to me. Then I tried to make those connections again only to have them fail by me disappearing months or even days later. My ex, though there was much that was fucked up there not caused by me, I was in part to blame. We would date .. I would disappear. Months later I would pop up again, desperate for the connection. Months later it would happen again. Several times this happened. I would change my number, delete my accounts just to stay hidden. The reason was different with every person.. The result always the same. I did not know then that it was a symptom of my paranoid schizophrenia or my schizoaffective or whatever the hell else. And though it explains why I did I.. Why I continue to do this... To all those I have abandoned. I cannot count how many friends I have left without notice... I am sorry. I dont know why I do this. Maybe one day I will. But I am sorry nonetheless. You didn't deserve it. And maybe.. This is why I am hesitant to make real healthy friendships. Because a healthy friendship is not something I can readily offer. And for that I am sorry.

[salty-rey]

An Electrifying Reunion [[Closed RP w/ 1088horsepowers]]

1088horsepowers It was midday on Cybertron when Double Tap landed his cruiser on the planet. Even though it has only been a few weeks, it felt longer that he had left his first home to visit Caminus. As much as he enjoyed his experience there and wishes return once more, he still have friends and love ones here to return to. Plus, he has missed home. Once the green mech had put his cruiser away in an abandon warehouse, he decided to go to his apartment first. Of course, no one was there but he was glad to see that no one broke in and that nothing was stolen. After that, Double Tap went to LC's home, to see if he was there. He had deeply missed the older mech and couldn't wait to see him again. There was so much to tell him and so much to catch up on. Plus, he also brought back some souvenirs that he prays that LC would like. Sadly though, LC was not in his home. Double Tap looked around but no one was there. Thinking that he may be at the Majestic's, Double Tap raced over there in his new alternate mode. He has gone through a bit of a frame change when he was Caminus. This may also be a surprise to others once they see him. But Double Tap wasn't thinking about that once he finally arrived to the bar that he works in. A smile came to Double Tap's face when he saw the very recognizable frame of LC. He was leaning against the bar, perhaps drinking or taking to someone. The green mech didn't paid much attention to that because he already had his arms wrapped around the now shorter mech and lifted him up a few inches off the ground with utmost joy. "LC! It is wonderful to see you again!" A now deeper voiced Double Tap spoke, shocking his coworkers and customers around.

[where-theres-light]

You're a sweet one but... why don't you name me at least.. hmmm say three reasons to make an exception here.......

Well… hmm.It’s funYou can choose if you want to be sweet or sexy (but is still fun)You’re cute and I just thought there was nothing wrong with asking. *puppy eyes*

[deadlockedup]

*licks cheek*

Looks at the pleasurebot with optics wide and vents sputtering.

[trustme-imamedic]

((Oh why, its your birthday!!! Have a very great one! ))

((Thank you sugar c:))

[imperatoria]

Meme: Me.

VISUAL ATTRACTIVENESS: ❤❤❤❤ (Prowl is surrounded by these pretty mechs. LC’s a bit small for his tastes but he’s got nice racy colors.)(purely aesthetic appreciation of looks)

FRIENDSHIP LEVEL: ❤❤ (On a professional level, Prowl feels nothing. But he appreciates their time together well enough that he’ll think of him fondly.)(how close a friend they consider them)

SEXUAL DESIRE: ❤❤❤ (Pretty face, pretty colors, nice voice, alright frame. Will do in a pinch.)(wanting to have sex with them)

ROMANTIC INTENT: x (Prowl knows the rules. Beyond the berth, LC is just another civilian, albeit one he’s partial to.)(hoping for a romantic relationship)

x Non-existent❤ Very low❤❤ A little❤❤❤ Hopeful❤❤❤❤ High❤❤❤❤❤ Maximum

[thefemmewiththewrench]

➸

send me a ➸ for an affectionate text message from my muse

☢☸|| {Hello– LC, right? I hope it’s okay to message– I just didn’t want you waking up confused. Not sure if you remember me, but I’m at least hoping the room is okay, and there’s a cube of low grade to your left (unless you rolled over, haha!) Rooms on me, try not to drink over your limit next time and hope you don’t feel too bad waking up. Stay safe, and message me when you wake up! :) <3 }

[where-theres-light]

★

Send my character a ★ and I’ll bold everything they feel toward your character.

I like you // I love you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’d kill you if I got the chance // I want you to like me // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’d date you (actual date) // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I pity you // I respect you // I trust you // I feel protective of you // I’d invite you with me to parties // I’d lend you my money // I’d borrow your money // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // I’m upset with you // You’re nice // You’re mean // I’m envious of you // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I look up to you // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better