Dec 31, 2020
12.31.2020 | xiao zhan and na ying performing ‘don’t ask me what’s disco’ (别再问我什么是迪斯科)
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12.31.2020 | xiao zhan and na ying performing ‘don’t ask me what’s disco’ (别再问我什么是迪斯科)
Okay, it’s December 31st, so I swear these are the last Christmas tree photos. The tree is coming down this weekend, but with Callie sitting underneath like a perfect adorable little fluffy gift, I HAD to take and post these photos. There was no other choice.
My New Year’s Eve this year is going to look quite different from years past. We would typically be getting together with friends, making lots of food, having lots of drinks, and staying up til the wee hours of the morning to ring in the new year. This year, B and I will be staying in and celebrating quietly, just us, and frankly ain’t no way in hell we’re making it to midnight.
I took the day off work today, so of course I had to go grab a decaf latte first thing this morning (hooray for free beverage points!) and hit the craft store as soon as they opened. It really only seems doable to go to stores like that, that aren’t necessary trips, right when they open, when they’re nice and empty. Lion brand yarn was on sale 40% off, and I had a coupon for 20% off the entire order on top of that, so naturally I bought an obscene amount of yarn. Like, so much. It was straight up embarrassing in the check out line, but the person ringing me up was nice enough. 😆
Now for the rest of the day, I’m all cuddled up on the couch working on a scarf for the Etsy shop and watching an HBO true crime documentary. The freezer is stocked with ice cream. We’ll make some fajitas or something later for dinner. Not a bad way to close out the year, all in all.
AYOKO NA TALAGA MAGSUOT NG BRA!
before this year ends i want to say all the things that happened to me this year.
january 2020. my heart was filled with hopes kasi i thought this year would be a good one but it turns out its not. mabigat ang taong ito.
february 2020. i was able to join a second pageant pero di ako nanalo. medyo nalungkot pero alam ko naman na hindi pa ako ganoon kagaling rumampa. i was insecure that time because my rival was able to win the title i’ve been dreaming of. and that dream remained a dream kasi hindi ko na kailanman makukuha yon.
march 2020. lockdown started. wala masyado nangyaro. i had a fling pero di naman nagtagal mahal pa kasi ang ex lol.
april 2020. still nothing happened. puro higa and kdrama lang.
may 2020. was a good month. i had two awards that i did not expect. and i am beyond grateful
june 2020. nothing much happened.
july 2020. talked to someone through internet but di ko type lol and it only lasted a month. di ko rin ghinost. nagpaalam ako ng maayos.
august 2020. start ng online class and i was happy not knowing what the next month will bring.
september 2020. heaviest and toughest month for me. my sister was positive in rapid test so basically we are exposed to her. just a few days after knowing that, the love of my life just left without saying anything to me. i thought i had moved on from him but i guess we’ll never know ‘til it actual happened. i cried for a whole month and isolated myself from socmeds. it was hard and up until now, i am still healing. and i hope i am getting better.
october 2020. birthmonth. i was sooo happy this month ‘coz i felt lots of love from my family and friends. i could not ask for more.
november 2020. wasnt a good month tho. our house was flooded and most of our furniture broke especially the bed i grew up. since i was born, yun na yung bed ko and medyo nalungkot ako because i really value things especially yung first and matagal ng nasa akin. medyo petty for other people but its okay.
december 2020. was a good month however, ngayon ko lang napansin na nagkakaanxiety ako kapag may nagaaway. siguro because of past experiences kaya ganon. natatakot ako na baka magkasakitan ulit. but i can say its stil a good month. because i met someone na ideal guy ko. someone who isnt rushing and likes to take things slow. i met him sa church, sakristan siya doon. he looked for my fb through the log book. and hanggang kanina nagmessage siya. i dont want to lose this person kaso if this person is not for me then hindi ko na ipipilit. ayokong ipilit ang isang bagay na hindi naman para saakin. kasi alam kong masasaktan ako. and yes, pagod na kong masaktan. and if ever man na in a relationship ako, i want it to be the last.
above all. thank you 2020. even though you’re a painful year, i still have so many things to be grateful for. i am ready to close this chapter of my life. and i am happy that i already received my plot twist. thank you, G!
12.31.2020 | xiao zhan performing ‘wild child’ (野子)
2020 is almost over. this year has been an unforgettable one for me, it made me think and grow. 2021 is almost here, and i hope everyone can be healthy and successful in the new year. next i will be singing the song, ‘wild child,’ and i wish we can all be like this ‘wild child,’ and step into our dreams, becoming better versions of ourselves. thank you.
Clear Skin sa 2021. 🙏
wang yibo’s backup dancers singing and dancing to ‘the rules of my world’ during their meal after the nye performance
Matatapos nalang taon, nagkapimples pa. PENGE PAMBILI CLEARBOMB! Hahahahahahahhaahhaa! 😂