I’ve grown numb,
again.
I think this
person I care
about more than
the stars,
the moon,
the planets,
and the whole
fucking galaxy;
is gone.
and if you know
me personally,
which you don’t,
you know the moon
means the world
to me
so comparing her
to the moon
means something
important,
and unforgettable
it started with goodbye
not directed to
me, but
a goodbye directed
to her whole world;
the people who
would take a
bullet for her
I saw her goodbye
and reached out
too late,
again.
this past day
since her goodbye
has been agonizing.
I wait for her return
more than I wait
for the moon and
stars to light up
my dark world
I ask myself now,
where is she?
why is my mourning
heart, which has been
mourning too long,
still breaking?
why are the
moon and stars
nowhere to be seen
when I need them most?
I need the moon’s guidance
I need her strength
and blazing love to
show me the
way through this
and to show me her
new hello.
Will the moon come
out? I ask to
nobody in
particular, since
she is the only
one I reach to
when no one else
is there.
and now she’s
disappeared,
and now the
person I care
about more than
her is saying her
goodbye
I pray for this
to not be the
final goodbye
I pray for this
to simply be the
beginning for her.
to end her suffering,
and pain and tears
and everything that
should never affect
the person I care
about most
I watched her grow
stronger, and stronger
then her walls were
crumbled down
to nothing
I watched them sink,
watching mine too,
and watching with
blurred vision,
unaware of the
brutality until she
goes missing
this message goes
out to her:
I love you, you
are the most
important person
in my entire
life, and not having
you here right now
makes me not
want to exist for
another second