#19.2.2022

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Louis Tomlinson, LTWT22: CINCINNATI [19.2.2022] 📸 savannahphilpotphotography

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i’ve recently kinda obsessed with pokemon, so here’s one of my fave characters and pokemons

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19.2.2022: Hirschstetten

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Louis Tomlinson, LTWT22: CINCINNATI [19.2.2022] 📸 savannahphilpotphotography

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February 19, 2022 - Day 245

Evening tea with friends.

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UN-BREATH

Date: 19 February 2022

Duration: 57 minutes at 10:52 PM

Depth:

The shakes disappeared again last night! There is a definite jump in the frequency of such sessions. Last night, many breaths paused for long. The relaxed body wasn’t moving with dissipating life energies along the spine. I did experience some shakes towards the end of the session. Other than that, I was still.

My attention couldn’t help but inform me that loose, freed up, surplus life energies were behaving differently. I made a mental search for where the life energies were at. I really couldn’t find the serpentine spinal energy at all. I mean, I knew it was there but I couldn’t tell where. And I observed familiar spots to find blessed life forces. I observed the spine and the head. No evidence.

In case the energies have carved a route within the spine of the neck, then one possibility is that the blessed energies have reached a point where it can’t quite be observed. It is not in the bulk of the spine where it can dissipate from freely and thereby making its presence felt via shakes. It isn’t exactly in the head where it can light up dormant brain cells to provide with imagery one has never seen before. Somewhere in between the two, maybe!

Perhaps, this is the kind of stillness that Gurudev Paramahansa Yogananda has written about. The kind of poised pauses I have already experienced during the ‘subconscious phase’ of my practice, are not what Gurudev is talking about. Those paused breaths were refreshing alright, back then. And I thought ‘this is it’! This is the breath-mind joint venture taking a break, that which Gurdev mentions. I have been proved wrong.

Breath related pauses during the phase of one’s practice when one is struggling with one’s subconscious mind aren’t the last of the pauses. Breathing vacations get replaced with bodily shakes, caused by loosened life energies. The body can’t take breathing vacations while it is being shaken about like that.

Once the kundalini is awakened, it’s a long and indefinite wait for stillness. Only after the stream of life energy in the spine finds a good spot to rest does the respiratory system take another well deserved break. These gracefully poised pauses in breathing are refreshing no matter when in your practice you experience them.

Pauses in breathing that I experience from this point on, matter to me. Dramatically long pauses are a realistic possibility only now. What the mind will bring to my attention when the body becomes so still, only another session of meditation can tell.