3 Years Later
Last year grad school caught up with me. I was losing more and more time, and I couldn't keep up with the website. Not only that, I was running low on unique ideas, and I was basically running the whole show on my own. It was starting to wear me down, which something that you love doing should never do.
So I stopped, hoping to come back to 1amgeek someday, and I still have hope but I doubt much will happen until I get my PhD. I have so many ideas hit me on a daily basis, whether they are for art projects, film projects, music projects, whatever, the problem is there isn't enough time. Or rather, there isn't enough time given the state and track of my life. Plus, I have no idea how to actually make a living doing any of this stuff.
By the end of next school year I very well may have my PhD in astrophysics, but I'm still not sure where I'm headed after that. I have two friends are starting businesses, and they want to make use of my design talents. I had originally come up with a media design consulting firm before grad school that I would love to take a crack at again. I want to take classes in art and film. I'd like to teach astronomy to kids, maybe work at a planetarium. I'd like to continue my current research if possible. There's so much I want to do and not all of it has to do with astrophysics. Science is awesome, and I love being able to look up in the night sky and understand my place in the universe a bit better than the average person, but I don't want my job or career to define me. I don't want it to become my life.
1amgeek was a project, an attempt for me to see what else I could do with my life. Could I manage to do two things at once? Could I turn something that so many people have done before into something that isn't completely missed? Could I become a success beyond just being an astrophysicist? I'm not sure I got all those answers, but there's still time.
I've been lax with my art lately because I've been trying to get back to gaming, back to what inspired me in the first place. That doesn't mean the ideas don't still strike me now and again, it's just not as easy to sit down and flesh out super detailed stuff these days. I haven't given up on that yet.
As Marcus Freeman, I'm a scientist and a geek. As Archymedius, I'm an artist, gamer, blogger, and also a geek. I wouldn't change the way things have gone because I've learned so much from my path. I just hope that I can use that knowledge to improve my future. Whether it be amping up 1amgeek into what I always envisioned it to be, or just managing to juggle everything I love doing, I have to thank the people in my life and the people who like and share my stuff. It's always nice to be appreciated for your work, even if it's only by one other person. So thank you.
