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from 2-5-16 (?) of the old dream diary!

I was on a ship-like vehicle, and I could transform into a mermaid. I only did this at a certain area on the boat: outside on some plank bridge that I found my old friend Jack at the other end.

In another part, I believe three women were singing to me, maybe they were villains? I also remember that after they sang, I said, "Love you too..." sarcastically before leaving.

I think the scenery qas mainly red from carpets and dark brown bc of the floor and wall.

#2-5-16 #dreams #pizzabites

The only place I see myself in 5 years is 6 feet under.

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#365day #2016 #2-5-16

find me someone who can: 1) put up with (& maybe even fall in love with) my random karaoke sessions & full on sing offs while I'm driving in the car 2) & my talent for being THAT person who is not afraid to break out in song if someone happens to say a sentence involving lyrics that I know no matter how annoying it may be (bc we all know everyone is singing the lyrics in their head, I'm just the one who actually sings it out loud)(ur welcome) -and I'll marry him.

#personal #2-5-16

but it must be only in like relationship type scenarios. because i mean ive been friends with cancer since i was a baby. i have a friend who i met in second grade who lives in a different city and still calls when she thinks about me and me with her. and the girl i was friends with in middle school to high school still tried to be my friend. and my current scorpio friend talks to me constantly and is my best friend. and gemini friend texted me the other day making sure everything was cool. and these are people i have grown to trust and love over so many years....like if i wasn’t a good person i wouldn’t have great friends like them who are nice and care about me....would i? i don’t think so. and they all think i am a really really nice person and they tell me about it constantly. and i mean i can be rude and mean and judgemental sometimes but im sure scorpio wouldn’t be friends with me if i was like that all the time or even most of the time. and i know for a fact people dont hang out with me cause i have money or because of my looks. so i mean these people are true friends. i dont know though. maybe im just not good with relationships or building them and keeping them because it takes me so long to be comfortable with people. and then from there it is like i am constantly testing them with loyalty and kindness and their way with words. because if you are in a relationship with person or going out with someone you just kind of met or have known slightly you dont know who they really are. and it really really doesn’t help that the guy i was with a few years ago i knew for a year and talked to nonstop because he was my best friend at the time and its like i literally knew him so well and knew how he was and what he like and didn’t like and who he liked and didn’t like and how he would react to certain things...like getting with someone like that is something that should have been safe....and he used me and left me alone and broke me. like how the hell can you trust anyone after someone does that to you? i guess i have really bad trust issues. and it feels like when it comes to a relationship you have to trust the person and also be attracted to them in some way and if you dont have extreme amounts of either then its not worth it and causes stress more than anything. i just wish i could have that. i wish i wasn’t so closed. but i can’t help that and although i wish it i dont really want to be open. because its that much easier to get hurt. and i feel so stupid being open about things. i think im going to text talon to see whats up with him and then ask if i am a nice person and then if he thinks i have problems opening up and or trusting.....to get a second opinion.

#9:07pm #fri #2-5-16

i feel like a bad person. like no one likes me or will like me because i am a bad person. im not a bad person though...right? i dont know...i really feel like that though. right now i feel like im the reason people aren’t attracted to me for long periods of time....

#8:51pm #fri #2-5-16

i have so many mixed feelings towards so many things. its like why. ya know?

#8:49pm #fri #2-5-16

but its like i want someone cute to love me ya know?

#8:47pm #fri #2-5-16

fuck....i want someone to love me rn so bad.

#8:46pm #fri #2-5-16