#2019 writing

[hannah-heartstrings]

You're allowed to make mistakes To try and fail and crash and break But allow yourself to heal Because you don't deserve the pain

[moncoeurs]

[shinysylver]

Weak Points | M | 7516

When Hux is the target of an assassination attempt in the middle of a diplomatic mission to Bespin, he has nowhere to turn for help. Unless he can bring himself to trust Kylo Ren.

glaciers melting in the dead of night | M | 6970

When an error in judgment leaves Kylo and Hux trapped on Hoth, can they survive for long enough to escape the echoes of the past and create a new future?

Stranger of My Imagination | M | 6805

“The New Republic High Court has outlawed capital punishment. You have been deemed guilty of the crime of genocide. There is no rehabilitation for you. By their order you have been sentenced to sleep for the rest of your natural life.”

Deemed too dangerous for prison, Kylo and Hux are stripped of their memories and sentenced to live out the rest of their lives in a specially constructed dream world. But can any prison truly hold them?

Insatiable Void | E | 6360

Hux and Kylo may be together now, but Hux has never forgotten what happened in the Supremacy's throne room. Or on Crait. Or any number of other humiliating moments over the years. And he was willing to do anything to never be vulnerable again. Even sacrificing his life.

Saturated | E | 1288

Kylo's mind was dark like a cup of hot caf, flowing into Hux until he was saturated and it was impossible to know where one of them ended and the other began.

Domesticated | T | 907

"What kind of Supreme Leader stages a solo rescue mission for a general?" Hux asked. "What were you thinking?"

"You're hardly an ordinary general," Kylo pointed out. "And I was thinking that I didn't want to break in a new fleet commander."

Birthdays | T | 866

Hux had done his best to forget his birthday entirely. Then Ren went and did this.

Hassle | T | 792

Even now, after all this time, Kylo wasn't completely sure how Hux would react to the news that he was vulnerable.

Mutual Respect | T | 615

"You're no Grand Moff," Ren said, dismissively.

"And you're hardly Darth Vader," Hux snapped back. "But we both must work with what we have."

Retirement | T | 570

"You're the one who insisted on cutting all of the retirement and veteran benefits for the First Order. You said it was the only way we would be able to afford another Starkiller Base.”

Crown | T | 484

"Feels a little warmer than it used to," Ren said. "I always remember being cold as a child."

Crimson Sky | T | 366

Hux looked at the sky and thought wistfully about homicide.

Maudlin | M | 297

"This is the last time," Hux snapped. "I'm not going to come for you the next time you fight her. I'll let you die instead."

Brown Eyes | T | 278

Hux is afraid that someday he's going to lose Ren to the power of the Dark Side.

And here is the odd man out, the one non Kylux fic I wrote in 2019. Have a bonus Supernatural Destiel fic:

Wanted | T | 2063

Losing Cas was unthinkable, but right now being with him was too.

[barbex]

The end of the year is here

Because we made some arbitrary markers on a bone one day, counting the days between the new moons and because some roman heads wanted to see their names on those marked bones and because we thought we had to start counting in some year -- we are now here, at the end of 2019. Time for a little look back.

So what have I written in 2019? My little spreadsheet tells me I have written 131,960 words in total as of this day.

That’s pretty darn productive I say.

I published and updated:

Shepard and the Machine 

Echo Between These Walls

On The Wings Of A Crow

Books Fall Down

Yin to Yang 

In Service to the Inquisitor

[podfic] The Woodcutter

[podfic] Are You Jealous?

[podfic] Haunted Eyes 

How To Wash a Templar 

Ever Fallen In Love With Someone You Shouldn't've 

Lyrium Skin

Lost Templar in Skyhold 

Admittedly, the first two were written in 2018 for a ficmas event but I also have a few things written that have not been published yet so it evens out. 

I’m especially proud of In Service to the Inquisitor, which I finished in May. I don’t finish things often so this was a really special occasion. Currently I enjoy working on Lost Templar in Skyhold the most but I also have a few other surprises up my sleeve. Gonna start 2020 at full speed.

I also enjoy editing @lauraemoriarty​‘s fic Lady of Light so much. I love chatting with her about worldbuilding details and OCs and it gives me so much inspiration.

As for reading, here are some highlights for you consideration from this year:

Lady of Light by LauraEMoriarty @lauraemoriarty​​, a sprawling epic of a powerful mage and the man (Cullen) she loves.

Mutual Pining by OceanTheSoulRebel @ocean-in-my-rebel-soul​, a very sweet tale of Carver and Merrill on a camping trip and wouldn’t you know it, there is only one tent!

The Far Shore by aban_asaara @aban-asaara​​, this epic tale of Fenris and Hawke fleeing Kirkwall is updating regularly and you don’t want to miss this wonderful story.

A Love Long Lost by cullenlovesmen handersmyheart) @cullenlovesmen​​, Cullen and Sebastian in Starkhaven and love and romance and societal differences and it’s so romantic!. 

A Chance Engagement by hollyand @hollyand-writes​​, the Regency AU you need in your life, with Carver as the clueless Lord and Merrill the proud lady.

Recreate His Worldly Glory by gremlinquisitor suchanadorer) @gremlinquisitor​, Sebastian back on the Starkhaven throne, still with his vows but deeply in love with Hawke.

So, all in all, I think I’m on the right track with my writing. I could be more productive but I think I’m figuring my weird brain out.

I’m just gonna keep going.

[heresetrash]

Live Together/Die Together | T | 3297

Hux and Kylo make plans to fabricate their own deaths to survive the war.

On the First Day of Christmas My True Love Gave to Me | M | 3410

Hux really wants a specific gift for Christmas. Kylo wants to mess with him.

Throw Down the Gauntlet | E | 3425

Hux and Kylo are neighbours. They don't get along - at all. But secretly, they both lust for the other, and when Kylo accidentally and untimely lets this slip, they inevitably have to do something about it. Neither wants to admit defeat, however, so they challenge each other.

To Someone Beautiful and Far Away | E | 39652

Armitage Hux works as a journalist. While out running on the beach one day, he stumbles on some debris which turns out to be a message in a bottle signed by someone calling themselves Kylo Ren. The message seems sad and lonely and Hux is drawn to it. He is curious about who this Kylo Ren is and starts researching in hopes of finding him and maybe writing a story about him.

Fireworks and Forgiveness | T | 28950

A year after his father’s death, Ben is still struggling to come to terms with his loss. In hopes of cheering him up and helping him move on, his mother rents a beach cottage in Canto Bay for the summer. Ben doesn’t expect the first summer without his father to be anything but lonely, but when he meets Armitage Hux, a local boy, everything changes.

Awakening in My Nightmares | E | 13709

Hux and Kylo swap bodies and are forced to commit to a temporary truce in order to figure out a solution. What starts out as a nightmare might turn out a lot more pleasant in the end.

[toloveawarlord]

2019 Writing Review

I did one of these last year so I thought it would fun to do it again! It’s nice to look back and see how far my blog has progressed.

Writing Stats:

Words Published: 148,925 (53,000+ more than 2018)

Total Fics Posted: 133

Most Popular OC Fics: And So They Met (Alara), What Once Was (Emery), Ashes to Ashes (Beckett and Sadie)

Most Popular MC Fics: Sweet Temptation (Lancelot), Bound  (Arthur), Made a Maid (Luka)

Fun Fact:

I averaged about 35,000 words every 3 months.

I posted 16 new ocs over the course of the year, which in hindsight isn’t that many at all with how many I still have to release.

Some of my personal favorite fics include: The Mad King, Tale as Old as Time, Konpeito, and Behind the Times.

What Once Was: I only intended this mini series to have 3 parts but it’s ongoing with at least 3 more chapters to be released. It was one of my most popular fics despite being riddled in angst and heartbreak.

Some of my favorite ocs to write are: Sophia Emerson (Etched in Blood) and Evie Noelle Clemence Bright (A Pair of Jacks.)

All in all, 2019 was a great year of writing for me, despite how stressed out I made myself. I think the biggest lesson I learned in 2019 is not to force myself to write something that I don’t want to, and It’s okay to not finish a fic. I write because I love it and I nearly pushed myself to a brink where I wasn’t enjoying it anymore.

My Writing Resolutions for 2020

Create content that I had fun making. Don’t make writing a chore.

Update already started fics more regularly

Remind myself it’s okay to take breaks and stop working on a project if it’s stressing me out.

2020 will be a year where I create many more fics, ocs, and enjoy the fandoms I adore so much.

-Ruka

[lululawrence]

2019 in Writing

I was tagged by @so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamed to do this and i love these things, so let’s do it!

1. amount of works posted: 27 (omg why am i like this)

2. total wordcount: 372031 (that’s still changing daily through Wednesday though, so... yeah. but also i had no idea it was that much??? omg)

3. longest fic: You Don't Care About Me (One More Night) (60281 words - which is actually my longest fic EVER as well, so that’s fun!)

4. shortest fic: If You Want To Be Loved (488 words)

5. fic with the most kudo’s: (Something's Been) Hiding In My Heart (actually, technically it’s Wine Not?, but since that was a cowrite i’m not counting it in this list)

6. fic with the most bookmarks: (Something's Been) Hiding In My Heart (once again, it’s actually Wine Not?, but yeah)

7. fic with the most comment threads: my advent fic lollll bless all of you that are reading as it posts, btw. i love all of you very much a lot. (the fic is The Goat Guy of Bethlehem btw)

8. total amount of kudos: 4688 WHICH I THOUGHT WAS KUDOS I’VE GOTTEN FOR THE ENTIRE TIME I WAS WRITING AND THAT’S ONLY FOR THIS YEAR SO HONESTLY BLESS ALL OF YOU

9. total amount of bookmarks: 1600, isn’t that a nice round number? i like it.

10. total amount of comment threads: 733 and once again i’m near tears, you’re all amazing thank you so much

11. fandoms written for: One Direction (Band), BBC Radio 1 RPF, Shawn Mendes (Musician)

12. fests you’ve written for: oh shit uhhhhh.... if i counted correctly there were 11. HAH. so there was... @popularryculture, @1000feelingsfics, @onedirectionbigbang, the Shake Off the Dust fics, @1drarepairfest, @wordplayfics, @1dpolyficfest, @larryabroad, @1dtrickortreatfest, @tomlinshawexchange, and the FOUR Fic Fest. Is that 11? Did I get them all? I think that’s everything.

13. pairings written for: 5? I think? Wait no, there’s more. 6? Harry/Louis, Louis/Nick Grimshaw, Louis/Greg James, Harry/Greg James, Niall/Shawn Mendes, and Liam/Zayn. oh shit and Harry/Louis/Nick, and Louis/Zayn, and...ya know what, that’s good for now. I did a lot of drabbles for the kiss drabbles and then some charity ones and i did whatever pairing was requested, so we’ll just leave the list there. lol

14. favorite fic you’ve written this year: THIS IS A VERY MEAN QUESTION I AM A LEO AND FAVORITES ARE HARD OKAY? Sigh. I think it’s a tie between two, though. You Don't Care About Me (One More Night) and You Try To Be Everything (I Need). or The Only Thing That Keeps Me Grounded. yeah. so top three. not bad, right? lol

15. goals for next year: to finish my big bang on time and maybe write some other fics too. with baby #3 almost here that’s about as much as i’m willing to set goal wise with writing in addition to all the touring the boys will be doing haha

okay! and now i tag... @becomeawendybird, @forreveries, @tempolarriefix, @tinyreindeerlouis, @2tiedships2, @lightwoodsmagic, and @jacaranda-bloom!

[blotsonapage]

Dear Someday Someone

Dear someday someone, How are you? How was your day? I can’t stop thinking about how much I want to ask you in person One day, someday. 

Last night I had a dream about you And though your face was blurred, I could still tell That it was was you By the softness of your touch And by the way my ever-lonely heart Ached to be close to yours And match its beating To the tempo of your life. 

When I close my eyes, I can almost see you, A pastel blur in the morning light. You hand me tea in my favorite mug, The one that’s chipped from years of use, And laugh at the way I gulp it down Because I hate the morning, But still want to be awake just to share it with you. And it doesn’t feel like a Someday. It feels like a Now. It feels like a Currently until I open my eyes And the dream returns to what it always was. A dream. 

In the silence of my apartment I can’t help but wonder if that’s all it will ever be. If you, my someday someone, Are nothing more than the smoke and mirrors The universe employs to trick me into believing in magic. A fairytale For a soul not ready to grow up And accept she’s alone. 

I am so afraid of being alone.

Where are you, my someday someone? Why won’t you appear at my side? Don’t you hear the way my heart cries Like the wind before a storm, Begging for you to come find me So this heart doesn’t shatter into a million pieces. Into fragments of a dream That can never be told again. 

I long for you, My someday someone. I long for your smile, Your laughter, your tears. Your days spent in bed, And those on the road. I long to just be near you, To share in your hopes, Your dreams, your fears. To stand at your side And defy the whole world To try and tear us apart. 

I long to share a pastel morning Bathed in soft sunlight, Hearing your warm laughter As I drink from a faded, chipped mug. 

But I will be patient, my someone, As I’ve been all along, And dream of the day I can finally ask, One day, someday, 

How are you, my someone? How was today?