#22.3.2021

[pangarina-angelin-a]

Zitterndes Beben

losgelöst von aller Zeit

drehender Moment

Wirbelndes Traumlicht

angekündigte Fügung

geheimes Schicksal

Fliehender Atem

abgelaufene Sehnsucht

Lächeln der Nebel

[prosy-days]

March 22, 2021 - Day 276

I did end up buying a space calendar for this year, despite being unsure if I'll get back into my office.

[godsnameisjoy]

FOUNDATIONAL PEACE

Date: 22 March 2021

Duration: 56 minutes at 9:13 PM

Depth:

Towards the end of this session it genuinely felt as if all my current restlessness was part of a secret survival technique of my mind. Kept with such secrecy that I wasn’t even aware of it up until now.

This restlessness ensures that I don’t take the next step towards the light of a thousand suns. I seem to have run into an inner wall which was invisible up until now.

Yesterday’s session was good. And it was a relief from all the restlessness that I have been experiencing. I thought I had this sorted. I thought my peace was irreversible. I may have jumped the gun in thinking so.

I may very well be stepping into the long arduous task of undoing stubborn old thought patterns. And I may face rebellion from my mind just because I am rearranging aged psychological furniture within. So be it. Peace must be firmly established in the deepest parts of me.

[puregrief]

So there's this girl who's gone viral for a song cover she did, and I'm lowkey pissed off cause we kinda sound similar -I can even dare to say I sound better- but we're totally different on every other level. It's pissing me off cause I'm losing a lot of opportunities just because of who I am as a person; where I live, what my financial situation is, and who my parents are. Like I could've been a whole lot better if it weren't for these circumstances. Yeah, whatever. Life is cool.