#22april2015

[2dayisaw]

‘TIS’ WTF Moment with spiders !!

[italianfruitcup]

every fucking time i try to do something, i get shut down. every time i do something that i think is good for me, or something i actually like, i get told how wrong i am for wanting it. every time i tell someone i wanna try something new, they tell me that i cant or shouldnt do it. every time i try to have a positive look at things, theres always someone there to make me doubt myself. and after all that bullshit, i begin to stop trying and stop caring and i say that nothing matters and that nothing is ever worth it, and then people tell ME to stop being so pessimistic? like you werent fucking telling me that when you were putting me down. you werent fucking telling me that when you taught me that my own happiness isnt important.

[mitahsnlhyt]

Hari ke tujuh, surat ke tujuh

Selamat malam pak pos! Malam ini indah bukan? Andai langit-langit kamar ku berhiaskan permata mini kelap kelip serta satu bola utuh bercahaya itu (berbentuk senyum mu pun tak apa, pasti pak pos mengerti maksud ku). Berbicara malam, tepatnya sudah 5 malam hatiku terasa sepi. Kekosongan yang sebenarnya entah bagaimana aku harus mengisinya. Malam akan berganti malam, mungkin kedepannya malam ku akan berlanjut seperti ini. Wahai tuan yang ada disana, bagaimana dengan malam mu? Sama kah dengan milikku? Sama seperti malam ku yang selalu diselimuti kabut rindu? Rindu R-i-n-d-u R i n d u R i n d u R.i.n.d.u Ah, bagaimana pun bentuknya rasanya tetap sama. Pak pos, mau kah kau bekerja sambilan? Bukan hanya membantuku mengirim surat. Tapi, bantu aku mengirim rindu-rindu ini. Kau boleh memikirkannya, beritahu segera jawaban mu! Segera lah! Karena rindu ini juga harus segera tersampaikan! Meskipun yang-di rindu-tak pernah merasakan.