Pt:5 "oh sorry bout it yeah?"turn around and walk away. Then I'm freaking out as we walk to the Side of the sidewalk and I know we need to call 911 but the number is different because it's a different country's defense we are trying to figure it out when I woke up. Please Chris I know this means something and I almost got raped once already. My mom had a dream about my dad last night or the night before telling her that we could both communicate with him. Please Chris I was almost raped before.
Well understand how I give dream readings. This was indeed a reality. You simply saw through their eyes and you felt and obviously remember the experience. You remember feeling helpless. So helpless you couldn’t do something as simple as scream. The first thing chasing you was BLACK (and unknown event or situation). I find it odd a voice would tell you to run instead of fight. Remember you ran past your boyfriend (someone you love) in order to escape. Meaning you will run so far from a problem you will let it consume others. It sounds cliche but this is about facing your problems. In all actuality your boyfriend was the reason why you were able to escape the chase (problem). He handled it for you. You start walking on the street (far away from your boyfriend/you have no problems YET). Then dirty white guys (malicious intent) show up on both sides tellings you things. This time you’re FORCED to confront your situation and you do nothing. But then your boyfriend (a loved one) rescues you from another problem again. Fear is used in these situations to show you exactly how powerless you are in the moment. It’s to shake you up and say “Fuck this I need to handle my own shit.” Stand up for yourself. You think you’re so weak but you’re not. You’re a human being with boundless potential your only bound by what you believe is possible for yourself. If you’re afraid of going out alone carry some O.C pepper spray (tasers are trash af), a blade on your side (a rapist will mount you from the front if you get his attention. Act like you want it then stab his ass in his spine), or gun (when old enough/personally I think a blade is better). Take self defense classes (YouTube has them, money is no longer an excuse) become a living weapon. I’m all for women carrying weapons and disposing of shitbags rapists. But I digress. Listen there is going to be an event coming where YOU’LL have no other choice but to fight or give up. And you’ll have no excuse. You must have courage and have faith in yourself. Women aren’t as weak as you think. Mental toughness destroys physical toughness anyway. A damn body builder can bench press 500 pounds all he wants. It means nothing if he can’t bench press the weight of his depression. The battle starts in your mind and it will end there. Give yourself a chance. Think of this way, what if you had to fight and you have a 25% chance you’ll live? Would you just sit there and get killed or use that fear to push you to survive. The stronger the fear the stronger the survival skill. It’s just a double edged sword you have to learn to control. But it starts in your mind. Fear is raw energy, the more you have the stronger you can be. I fear an enemy that is afraid more than one that’s fearless. A enemy that’s afraid will do anything it takes to get out alive (ANYTHING), the fearless one won’t. You are stronger than you realize and you don’t need someone to HELP you all the time. You are more than capable. Hell what if both of those white guys had osteoporosis? He’d break into a million pieces if you kicked them. But you won’t know until you fight. This is directed to the problems that come into your life. Look towards yourself, it’s time to pick yourself up superwoman and learn to fly again.
