#25052022

[pommepommepomme]

[behind-the-seas]

🌷 bf is rewatching goblin. He just binge-watched and finished I’m not a robot yesterday. I’m watching a different series, a crime miniseries. He’s always asking why I like stressful stuff. I don’t get why it doesn’t appeal to him though. I even told him it’s based on true events and it’s quite good (title is unbelievable)

🌷 my brother brought me milktea (!!!) I have been craving for it for a few days now but I can’t order it because the delivery fee is so pricey. I asked him last night and I didn’t expect for him to follow through :”> so kind

🌷 it was stressful last night because uncle visited and badmouthed mom and some other people while he was drinking beer with my brother. He’s also nagging about how we don’t want to move to a bigger/cheaper place. Basically, being so self-righteous and stuff. I’m not in their conversation but overhearing him made me lose my cool and shouted to just talk outside if he’s just negative like that. I know being pregnant is not an excuse and he’s a helpful uncle to us but it’s too much and my plate is already full. I don’t need his bad vibes

🌷 as usual, I feel bloated, as always. I can’t wait to release isabel

[devitaapem]

Mencoba tegar meski berat. Kerasnya hidup memaksaku untuk tidak jatuh dan gugur. Tidak pula lembek dan pengecut. Pun tidak manja, cengeng, atau bergantung pada orang lain.

Hidup ini memang tidak pernah adil. Tangisan ini kuselipkan hanya untuk mengosongkan beban di hati dan pikiran. Biar ia mengalir pergi bersama embun pagi yang mengering.

Semua tidak akan pernah berubah meski kuratapi. Karna ku tau, perubahan bisa ku dapat hanya dengan pengorbanan dan kerja kerasku sendiri. Lalu semuanya ku ikat dengan doa yang ku panjatkan pada sang pencipta, Allah SWT. Semoga engkau terima.