#2600s

[marcholasmoth]

OSRR: 2685

i made more snowflakes.

this one here is now the smallest snowflake i've ever made. and i still made it with those disgustingly huge scissors. i need to find my tiny pink ones. THEN i can make REAL snowflakes.

today was okay. it went between great and terrible a few times, and i'm just happy to be in bed now. remind me to not get flat noodles again. they're not so good. the fine noodles are much better.

(i got thai again. i was craving it.)

(so many fuckin cravings this week, you'd think i'm pregnant? but i'm literally not because this week was bleed-forever week, of which today was the worst. fuck that shit.)

joel's out, or was, but he'll probably be home soon. this week was the anniversary of the death of one of the friends in their circle, so they're taking this week to celebrate his life together, and they did something on wednesday and they'll probably do something tomorrow, and i think tonight was a thing for it too. i didn't want to impose, so i just came home tonight.

i'm just. i was already anxious and on edge when i got home. getting talked at about "having an eternal perspective will help", it only got worse. while at first i didn't have the words because all i had were tears, i spoke ineloquently through them to tell my dad that talking about religion hurts and i'm avoiding all of it.

i actually stood up for myself. which, yknow, is very impressive because it doesn't happen, ever, so that's good. plus i hopefully won't have to suffer through religion talks again. here's hoping.

anyway, i have ten million things to do tomorrow, and all i want to do is watch lord of the rings. which i'm not going to be able to do, because i have homework to do, and a final to finish.

not looking forward to all of that.

[marcholasmoth]

OSRR: 2605

today was another long-ass day and my feet and my legs hurt.

but.

today.

i.

flew.

the millennium falcon.

oh my christ it was fucking incredible and i cannot believe that it was a real fuckin thing?? yes i know it's a simulator, but it was still so cool!!

oh my god.

and i saw storm troopers and KYLO REN i LITERALLY SCREAMED and THE FUCKIN FALCON ITSELF

IT WAS SO FUCKING COOL OH MY GOD IM STILL REELING FROM IT ALL. THERE WAS SO MUCH TO GET SND SO MUCH TO SEE AND TRY SND THINK ABOUT AND INVESTIGATE AND IT WAS INCREDIBLE.

we went on a few rides not in galaxy's edge, but seriously? not even toy story can compare to STAR WARS, even if one of the toy story rides was just an adorable shooting game and the other toy story rides were just plain fun.

we also got to go on the list for rise of the resistance.

i cannot and will not describe this for you. it was fucking incredible, though. holy shit.

oh my god.

anyway i have class to go to tomorrow and a scholarship meeting at 6pm tomorrow, and i'm ignoring the heat exhaustion from this morning because that was Bad.

we also watched the last thing jim henson worked on, which was the muppet-vision 3D thing which was super fun.

i now understand why people love disney world so much. it's still excessive and prohibitively expensive, but honestly, if it's what you want, save up and go. so worth all of it. holy shit.

no word from joel or from FF, so i figure they're both busy. i love them both so so much

it's time to sleep so i won't pass out with my phone in my hand.

[marcholasmoth]

OSRR: 2641

today was a really long day. started off with zero brain cells in astrophysics. went to no brain cells at work. kept no brain cells so day. worked with friends and her sister on stats for a few hours, and she's gonna recommend me to her classmates to help them, too. so that'll be good. some extra income.

in the meantime i'm still exhausted and i need money. rip. at least joel is supportive and toasty to sleep next to. i just love him.

probably goin go get tested tomorrow.

[marcholasmoth]

OSRR: 2611

i can't do numbers today. bold of me to assume i can. lmao.

i woke up for class today, sent an email off to my professor, sat in for class and took lots of notes, took a nap, answered some emails, worked with a student, took the cat to the vet, worked with student some more, sorted out my disney spoils, had dinner, watched (read: ignored) football for a bit, went to bed, and talked to a few people for a bit before realizing that it's too fuckin late to be awake so i need to use the sleep.

i only left to take simon to get his nails trimmed because he refuses to be patient for us but he'll let the vet clip his nails. probably because he gets drugged for it so he's not anxious. i guess he gets his anxiety and stress from me. poor bean. :c

anyway, nothin from joel today but he did offer for me to come over when i was over with him yesterday but then i didn't wanna do anything so i just stayed home today. i put my foot up because it was really swollen and stuff and that wasn't good. the red on top of my foot is getting better. the swelling has gone down a significant amount. my feet hurt a little less. but so far so good.

grateful i work sitting down. kind of wanna work from home this week so i don't have to drive and hurt my heels doing it. no thanks. feet already hurt.

sent another message to FF, nothin still. hope they're just a lil busy. i miss them.

back to work tomorrow. no thanks.

[marcholasmoth]

OSRR: 2635

i learned today i can have 27 hours a week! hallelujah! i don't have to keep fudging my hours to make them fit when it goes over!

i got paid today. $553.20.

i paid my bills today. $553.

I have twenty cents left.

i stopped at home after work and grabbed stuff for the con and i scavenged for the cash i knew where it was and i had access to. my mom gave me an additional twenty dollars. i was able to put money in both my accounts, to cover the last bill coming out tomorrow, and to pay for gas. so i have a 98% full tank of gas that cost me 23 cents a gallon LESS than the gas stations near joel's. $3.16 instead of $3.39. $3.39 a gallon is DISGUSTING. i hate that gas prices are so high again.

anyway, class tonight was all about python. it made a lot of sense. it's far more intuitive than matlab is. i'll be able to sleep tonight because it didn't stress me out. hell yeah.

adri and micaley and i went for mcnaldos this evening, which was really nice. i love spending time with both of them so much. i just adore them.

i'm excited to see joel tomorrow. i like sleeping in his bed by myself because it's big, but i miss the other usual occupant. i don't miss being squished into the wall, though.

but i'm happy i'll get to see him.

i gotta do laundry in the morning, and i have class and i need to shower and all that fun stuff. it's been a few days since i washed my hair, so it got really itchy during class, and it started bleeding a little bit because i scratched too much. i hope it heals quickly. i didn't scratch a whole lot, but it was enough to make it icky. i hope it's fine in the morning.

my eyes hurt from trying to keep 'em open. i'm going to pass out now.

[marcholasmoth]

OSRR: 2699

today work was long but i packed my shit before i left joel's so i didn't have to go back to grab things after work.

but also mckenna and i got thai food for lunch and it was a great idea. except the peppers hurt my tummy.

got home, brought my shit in, grabbed chelsea and james'a stuff, went to see the eggs and cut egg's hair, hung out a bit, and then went shopping for last-minute things. i succeeded in my quest, and after acquiring mcnaldos i returned home. mom and i ate dinner, my stomach was UNHAPPY, mom went to bed, i grabbed all the presents in my room, and i went to town wrapping. i didn't finish, no - i still have many gifts to wrap. but i'll have time tomorrow and i gotta grab a pair of things from joel's so i can wrap them properly, and i wanna get something for daniel and ashley so i can share crimmus with them, too! because sunday game.

anyway, i am sleepy and i request sleep.

i'll be happy to see joel tomorrow, i miss him now. he might be up right now anyway, but that's fine. me and my desire to cuddle. alas.

[marcholasmoth]

OSRR: 2698

me and my lab partners woke up to a message saying labs and shit are due TOMORROW at 8am, not TODAY. and that we can turn them at any point before the end of next week. so that's nice. shit's hard, man.

after bringing joel to work today, i came back and took a nap. it was nice.

work was fine. nothing really to report there.

after work, i went to the mall with one of my coworkers, josh, to get some gifts. he's pretty cool.

went home after that, had chinese for dinner and wrapped some of the gifts i got, hung out a bit, and came back to joel's, where i hopped on a zoom call again (we worked earlier today too, while i was at work), and was there until like 10:30 and i decided "fuck this shit i'm out." so now it's naptime, my stomach is grumbling, and i was FINALLY able to get my new popsocket for my phone.

i ALSO got the gifts andrew got for me! he got me a paperback copy of the martian, which is a book i've been wanting to read for a while, and an obsidian arrowhead necklace! it's so pretty. i wanted to take a picture of it to send to him, but i was shaking so badly i had to have my mom take it for me.

that's what happens when you don't eat, kids. eat your goddamn food.

[marcholasmoth]

OSRR: 2697

i think i got the number right on this one

i just realized it'll be 2700 on christmas eve, which is so cool. i've been at this for a long-ass time, bro.

brought joel to work, came back and took a shorty, stopped for gas, went to work, was given danishes and a gingerbread man by my coworker, worked on my physics and mckenna's physics, finished a three-page derivation, was brought a hot cocoa from starbucks by another coworker, sat and talked and made a few snowflakes, left at 4, got joel, went back home, sat for a bit, started up my laptop to work on more physics, zoomed with adri for like. four hours. as we worked on physics. we got a lot done, and i was able to input and explain the derivation i did earlier today because i was gonna be the only one to understand what i did, so i might as well type it in myself. i fixed some formatting and we agreed to do this get together, and so after formatting and editing and reformatting stuff, i shut my computer and left adri and micaley to finish up the lab so we can submit it in the morning. we've all done a lot of work, and i'm pretty proud of us for doing so much.

it's been a long-ass semester, and this one last report is the last thing i need to submit. and then i'm done.

i'm gonna ask professor pw to be my advisor. not only are they easier to understand, they also understand what it's like to be a nonbinary woman-ish scientist in the world of astrophysics, so in that i relate to them more, research aside.

and i think having them in my corner will be nice.

so that's tomorrow, but now i am going to cuddle with joel and enjoy my evening of quiet.