Mar 6, 2016
heaven gained a beautiful angel two nights ago. he will be missed greatly by everyone who’s come across him. so sorry you felt the need to take your own life, bubba. i miss you already..
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heaven gained a beautiful angel two nights ago. he will be missed greatly by everyone who’s come across him. so sorry you felt the need to take your own life, bubba. i miss you already..
Havent written in awhile…but theres not a day that goes by that youre not on my mind…havent dreamt of you either for a bit…hope I’ll get to see you there soon…i miss and love you so much daddy!
and I still wake up everyday and think, I love you. every day, I still love you, with or without feeling the pain.
reading listening notes (6) 3/4
1. This American Life. “Tribes: Rest by Andrea Seigel.” Online video clip. Youtube. Youtube, Mar. 31, 2013. Web. 4 Mar. 2016. “Her voice sounds like she always has a hard candy in her mouth, but she doesn’t.”
2. Leigh, Emma. “Mediate Sexuality in ASMR Videos.” Sounding Out! Dec. 14, 2015. Web. 4 Mar. 2016.
“ASMR is triggered not only by sound, but also by touch, and many ASMRtists strive to create perfect illusions of tactile sensation through the expert manipulation of visual and aural components.”
3. I really like ASMR videos, and I feel like they’re totally ruining my ability to naturally come across ASMR in real life, I wonder what other people who experience this have to say.
4. This was totally the ASMR article I was waiting for, in some senses. I think it’s important to talk about reframing sexuality to be about pleasure, and of a much wider scope. At the same time I struggle with ASMR being inherently sexual, as Leigh argues, because I think that I do not seek ASMR for sexual pleasure, I seek it for ASMR pleasure and I still feel like I want to draw a distinction between the two, if only because they are different sensations for me. I also feel like ASMR because of it’s personal contact has a lot to do with taking care or nurturing and I would also place that as (possibly) different from sexual experiences. The things that I feel like I want to read about in regards to ASMR is having to do with politics of identity and politics of the body, and a larger discussion about what it means to make money off of providing ASMR experiences. The majority of ASMR content creators who are very successful and make large amounts of money off of making these videos are blonde, white, female, feminine, with big titties too. What does it mean that people find pleasure, calmness, comfort, nurturing, and develop some kind of relationship with people who look like barbie? Within the context of Leigh’s article, what I’m going to suggest is kind of sick, but ASMR is more like a parent-child relationship to me than a sexual/intimate partner relationship.
Maybe if I don’t cry, I won’t feel anymore. Stone cold, baby. God knows I tried to feel happy for you. Know that I am, even if I can’t understand. I’ll take the pain. Give me the truth.
Demi Lovato