#3cto spooks

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MY FLESH PRISON IS 18 TODAY

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I JUST,,,, LOVE,,,; WHEN PEOPLE DONT TAG THEIR FUCKIG JUMPSCARES,,,,

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Does anyone else get a feeling of "kin overlap w stuff?" like w me its w ghostly dragons/deer/birds and i just kin w that so hard but they arent really a kintype they are just there bc im ghostkin and dragonkin and perytonkin? not bc im kin w them but bc they give me kin feelings

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New kintype

fuckig, hav been feeling kin feels for deer and birds for a while but not enough for me to consider them a full kintype, then today i remembered perytons exist and uh *~mystery explained~* but yeah gonna meditate on this more and make sure, but im like 99% sure bout this

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things i need to remember:

-im allowed to vent on my blog, its MY blog -im allowed to cry and be upset -i must accept what happened and move on -i may have caused the problem, but i didnt cause how people reacted to it -i have apologized and if my apology isnt accepted that is not my fault -i have been honest and i must /and will/ stay honest -im allowed to care what other people think about me, but im not allowed to hurt myself over it -this is my body, i choose what i do with it, no one else -there are still good things in my life -there will be more good people in my life in the future, leaving some behind for their own good is ok -just because i am mentally ill doesnt mean im unloveable -i will find someone who will love me even when i am having a hard time -i will get out of Virginia one day -i will find someone who loves me without wanting to change who i am -i will find someone who loves me for my personality not my body -i will find someone who loves me enough to not force me to live with an animal i am allergic to -i am hurting now, but it wont always hurt -remember people positively, remember the good times -but dont forget to acknowlage the bad to -i am nnot a horrible person -with my personality and my BPD i am a toxic person to some people, as long as i acknowlage that and stay away from those people im not a bad person -just because i love/care about someoen doesnt mean i have to be friends with them -sometimes i perceive things wrongly, this comes from years of abuse, and its not my fault, but i must remember that it happens -just because i perceived something wrongly doesnt invalidate the way i felt -i cannot put my FP on a pedestal, it either leads to abuse or to me taking the blame for everything even if we both did things wrong -i dont need a FP -i dont need a signif -i can listen to/watch/read/play/otherwise enjoy things people i used to know did -i will find some who will /actually/ move in with me -i can make it to graduation -i can have a good time at prom -im not allowed to look at any of my exes social media -in 10 years none of this will matter and i will be in a better place -i dont need to have other people like me to be allowed to be happy -im allowed to be happy -im allowed to be alone -im allowed to make my own life choices -im allowed to be bitter -im not allowed to keep things bottled up just so people like me more -im gonna be ok -im gonna be ok

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8 hours!? i think unless i missed an hour i didnt sleep well lat might

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7 hours!!

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6 hours!!