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Dexter - 4x01 - Living The Dream
Tarlos in Season 4 Episode 1: The New Hotness
The eyes, chico, they never lie
where do we go from here
ship: Tarlos | fandom: 911 Lone Star | author: chaotictarlos | read on ao3
Rating: Teen and Up | Warnings / Tags: Angst, heavy angst, angst with a happy ending, Carlos Reyes, TK Strand, 4 x O1 Coda, The new Hotness, Episode 4 x 01: The New Hotness, A lot of talk of the secret marriage, TK dealing with feelings, in a healthy way, 911 Lone Star Spoilers
Summary: TK finds out Carlos' secret and they talk about it.
Authors Note: When I sat down to write this fic, I had planned to write angry TK and wanted to explore my own feelings about the secret. I've never been confronted with a situation where a favorite character of mine drops a bombshell this big and it was jarring and it left me feeling very off-balanced and upset last night. I wanted to understand it and the best way for me to do that is to get inside the heads of the characters. The story I set out to write is not the one I ended up with, and I'm okay with that. I think, and hope, I did this justice. I hope you enjoy it.
for @kiloskywalker who was a delight to talk to last night and really had some interesting thoughts.
thank you to @bubblesandroses8 for beta'ing this for me
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After the dust and frogs of the day settle, TK finally takes a moment to sit down and let everything sink in.
Carlos is married.
The love of his life is married. To a woman .
The words feel heavy as he thinks them, settling deep into his bones.
He's not sure what he's supposed to feel at that news.
When Carlos told him earlier in the day that he is married to a woman, it had been a shock. TK hadn't been able to process the intensity of his emotions at that moment because after learning about Iris, he was concerned for her, and then Carlos told him they could get married in 8 weeks and the happiness he had felt overpowered everything else.
His first reaction was to be hurt, confused, and angry - and he still feels those things.
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Carlos Reyes in Season 4 Episode 1: The new Hotness
Dexter - 4x01 - Living The Dream
Tarlos in Season 4 Episode 1: The New Hotness
how did we (i) get here?
ship: Tarlos | fandom: 911 Lone Star | author: chaotictarlos | read on ao3
Rating: Mature Warnings/ Tags: Angst, Internalized Homophobia, 4 x 01 spoilers, Carlos Reyes, Iris Blake, TK Strand, Character Study, Carlos Begins, of sorts, mild sexual content, feelings, lots and lots of feelings
Summary: A look at Carlos, from when he was younger to present.
Or, in which I meant to write a Carlos POV Coda and wrote a Carlos begins and so much more.
Authors Note: I sat down to write a Carlos POV to go with the TK one I posted yesterday (where do we go from here) and the story took a turn. Instead, I explore Carlos as a person with this new information and explored his life is leading up. I made discoveries about myself, about Carlos, and reshaped how I feel about this secret along the way. I enjoy where this ended up, and I hope you do too. Thoughts and comments are appreciated.
Thank you to L for beta'ing for me. :)
for @tylerkennedys
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Carlos Reyes never claimed to be a perfect man.
He knew that some people saw him as such. He’s always been able to put out the vibe that he has his life together, that he’s not falling apart and as broken as everyone else is.
He’s always been good at pretending.
It’s just something he’s always had to do.
Growing up, Carlos tries to be the perfect son. He never wants to disappoint his parents but something always seems to be wrong with who he is, pieces of him that they don’t seem to like.
When he was 10, his dad commented that he is “too soft” as a boy because he choices schoolwork over playing football.
Carlos internalizes that and the next school year tries out for all the sports, hoping it will make his dad proud, but all his dad can focus on were the things that he wasn’t getting right.
So Carlos works harder and throws his all into the game.
He just wants to make his parents proud.
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