#4:41am

[realigningthoughts]

She reminds me of summer… and it’s my favorite season ❤️

[anchor-dreamss]

when you can’t look on the bright side, I will sit with you in the dark.

[ajyal-azez]

تنام الأريحة على فراش حلمٍ، وتأبى بذلك أن تستيقظ من صحوتها وتسكن قارعة القلوب!

[numbsex]

Effortlessly dangling

Fearless

Momentary bliss

[mdart]

sakit na naman ng mata ko.

[pairsss]

How did I think I was straight when I had such a fascination for the chorus of Cold Sweat by Tinashe

[diaries-of-a-hopeless-soul]

Entry #24: September 9th, 2018 (4:49am)

So my mom finally figured out I have depression. She also started noticing when school finished. That's around the time it started spiraling down. I didn't outright deny it. With her, you have to give a little in order for her to trust you. So I just told her what happened made me upset and that was all, but she's insisting I see my doctor. He's just gonna prescribe anti depressants which will have side effects to which I'll have to take pills for that and then those will have side effects and so on and so forth. All that will just cost more money and I'll just be an even bigger burden to my parents. I can't have that. What's worse is that I was going to tell Talitha about my depression since hers is similar to mine. Depression varies in intensity but the difference in cause I'd a wide variety. The cause of hers I think is similar to mine. That's why I felt it safe to talk to her. But then all this happened and I couldn't trust her. So it spiraled out and now my mom is really starting to notice. She even makes it a habit to reiterate how she can't live without me. But as much as that means to me, it makes me feel infinitely worse and it reminds me of how much of a burden I am. I know in my mind that that is not the intention but I can't help but feel guilty when she says that. That's why I have to end it before it gets it if hand. I really regret not doing it in the day I had planned and chickening out, but there really is no point in living this life anymore. And since I can't get a new one I may as well just end this one. My end is coming really soon. I refuse to let myself continue to be a burden to my parents. I'm such of it and the way it makes me feel.

[waffleswiftt]

anyway it’s almost 5am so like i should probably go to sleep. night everyone (and taylor; i love you)