#4-20-22

[halloweenvalentine1997]

I am swallowing heat and wasp stings.

The moon is a knife in the sky, a luminescent glow of cutlery.

I am telling some guy in a baseball cap to stop hitting the girl next to the riverside campfire, and he lets her depart through the rock trails and bushes, back up to the vacant playground where she falls asleep.

When daylight calls like a bell, I walk away

And seep into the concrete while rising from it simultaneously,

Disconnecting myself from myself.

The wasteland is painted into my eyes.

Meth crystallizes my veins forever.

I am running into the white-hot lure of it,

Glowing like a firespark on Independence Day.

Forever ascending hills,

Turning corners, transmutating.

Everything moves so fast.

Everything sparkles in a rainbow spectrum through the grey.

Images shatter like a broken tv screen

As I finally close my eyes

After a sleepless 3 days, embracing the angels I imagined.

- Vivica Salem

[completepottery]

That ogre had more might than any of these pitiful displays.

[trustmeimadoctor]

Rushed through a project that isn't due until the end of the week. Exam in less than two hours... Not feeling like We got this one. PTSD mode is not the ideal mode for learning. Tried to make an appointment with the school therapist but you need an emergency contact. Failing isn't the end of the world... If We fail the exam and tank the project I think We can still pass the class because as of rn our average is a 91. We will just need to figure out how to put the resurfaced trauma on the back burner for the rest of the semester. Is that even possible? Guess We'll find out.