#5:31pm

[ajyal-azez]

-أُصاحب الشاي كحبيبٌ أبديّ.

[ajyal-azez]

عاملني كما تتعامل الموسيقى في جسدي، تمرّ حافية وهادئة وبِخفتها تنثر سحرها الأخاذ.

عاملني كما تتعامل الأرض حينما تستقبل حبات المطر الآن، مستبشرة متعطشة بحلول هطولها.

ثم أقم واستقم، كالأرض الثابتة لاتريد موجة الحراك.

-قلمي

[ajyal-azez]

سأشرب شاي المساء مُرًّ هذه المرة

لإن حلاوة فمك مازالت قابعة في مجرى فمي.

[closetgremlin]

“Gee, Miro, why does your fantasy world Phiri have so many religions/dieties in it?”

Because in our world, Greek gods are different from Aztec gods are different from Egyptian gods are different from Judeo-Christian god are different from Buddhism is different from Japanese—

“Are all of these gods and deities real in Phiri?”

Uhhhhhh I’ll get back to you on that. Probably. 89% yes. 92%.

[haleys-thoughts]

💜💙💜💙So I just came across this photo of Sonny while he was in the hospital in January 2019 post surgery. I remember I missed him so much I had to see him. But when I looked at that photo right now, I saw hope in his eyes, like he was gonna make it. I can't stand to see pics like this. It breaks my heart all over again. I miss him so much. I never wanted to imagine my life without him. Now I have to live it. I really hate this feeling I'm feeling right now. Like I hate everything all over again💜💙💜💙

[diaries-of-a-hopeless-soul]

Entry #19: August 7th, 2018 (5:31pm)

Do you have any idea what it's like to lose a sister??? To lose someone you value so much that it feels like a piece of your heart has been ripped out??? That's what you did. You did that when you suddenly decided that you didn't want to associate with me anymore. You made the decision on your own that I wasn't deserving of you. That would have been okay if you just explained why??? Why don't you want to be my friend anymore??? We've known each other for a decade and you just end it. And for what??? Because you don't think we see each other enough??? When you wrote that message, it was the same week we all went to Matthew's with Anthony and Raj for game night. And a couple nights prior was Keyannas birthday. So excuse me if I couldn't go for round three all in one week. And if you're thinking that we don't hang out enough, just the two of us, then that is YOUR fault. Everytime I suggested going to the movies or chilling at one of our houses, or getting dinner you always had to bring Ryan into it; "Oh Ryan would love this!", "Hang on, let me text Ryan to see when he doesn't have work.", "I think we should invite Ryan." So that is your fault and it's not an explanation why you suddenly decided to end things. You didn't even give me a chance to understand. You just ended it and that's what hurts the most is that you don't even think I'm worth an understanding. That ten years of friendship isn't worth shit! And I hate you for that.

[bangsart]

[aestheticsandbbyangels-blog]

Mood snapshot: 5:31pm blasting Homecoming Queen by hinder and sitting on my floor writing bad love poems