Dear Person I Had A Crush On;Wow, well I had a crush on you from grade 9 till I transferred schools half way through grade 11, if i’m being honest i probably will always have a crush on you. I remember it was my first day of high school a big change and i was kind of terrified but also excited like most people are, in case (you guys haven’t noticed i am boy crazy) so of course i was keeping my eye out for cute boys and so far there was only a few but no one compared to you… i walked into art class that first day and i’m pretty sure the first thing i saw was you, you were the kid who loved to goof off, that whole semester i couldn’t help but like you from a far because i was too shy to talk to you.. plus one of my best friends at the time also liked you and i couldn’t do that to her so i kept my crush on you quiet, grade 9 flew by, i had a few flings but my crush for you never faded, then in grade 10 you had a girlfriend and i couldn’t help but be a bit jealous of her, but you were happy. then second semester you were in my history and science class, in history you made everyone laugh by bantering with the teacher and pushing her buttons, even though you sat on the other side of the class, i always had the perfect view of you, we ended up becoming friends talking a few times in class, everytime you looked at me i swear my heart skipped a beat, i got all giddy around you for some reason which is strange for me, then you broke up with your girlfriend… and to be honest i couldn’t have been happier because we got closer after that, we constantly would look at one another across the class room and smile and basically have eye sex which was one of my favourite things ever (and i miss it so much its not even funny) your eyes were one of the things i love like about you, they were such a light green but also had blue and brown mixed in, it was like they captivated me.then when i was away in england you messaged me and i was the happiest girl ever because you offered to show me what i missed in science while i was gone, the day that you did i can’t explain it but being near you made me happy, and you surprisingly helped me (it was weird because i did better than he did) then we started texting everyday after and hung out a few times at lunch and then we went on a “date” with my best friend and her boyfriend, it was awkward at first since we had to wait at her place for her boyfriend and you sat on the chair at first but then you moved on the couch beside me and you laid across me, i would take your hat and play with you hair, and then we’d fight for the controller, then when it was time to leave you pulled me onto your lap and hugged me, then we went to play laser tag…. you bought coins even when i told you not to, and split them with me, then when you handed in the tickets you got the skittles and said “have them since i know they’re your favourite” i told you that weeks ago and the fact that you remembered still gets me, you also got the little spinny thing and gave to me (i still have it) then during the game you kept shooting me AND WE WERE ON THE SAME TEAM but i ended up beating you muahaha, then i stood on on of the games with a step stool which made me a bit taller than you (he’s 6’1” and i’m 5 ft) and i put my arms on your shoulders, you thanked me for bringing you and gave me a hug…. and then you kissed me… i will never forget that moment because after you picked me up by the waist and spun me then put me down and i had the biggest smile on my face, then you walked me home and kissed me goodbye.. i went to sleep with the biggest smile because i used to dream of what happened that day, it seemed like something out of a movie to me.. then you didn’t message me for two days and ignored me at school… you left me thinking that i did something wrong and that i fucked up or i wasn’t good enough for you. and then i was at the schools athletic banquet just sitting there looking at my phone waiting for a text that never came, i went home and had to find out from my best guy friend why you were ignoring me.. the fact that you went and hung out with your ex the day after we hung out and then kissed her absolutely broke my heart, you’re one of the only guys i have ever cried over, i know it sounds stupid, we were never dating right we didn’t agree to be exclusive or anything but i still liked you so much that i didn’t think you would ever do that to me. the fact that you didn’t care either hurt me the most and having to see you everyday in class was the worst i dreaded it. then there was the time i drunk texted you the summer after school ended calling you out on what you did…all i want to know was why you would go back to her and if i did something wrong… i guess i’ll never know since you never did answer me. and of course in grade 11 you were in my math class so i had to see you everyday once again, it was like torture because i couldn’t help the old feelings i tried so hard to push away come back, then of course the seating plan had me sit beside you almost killed me being that close to you again but you rarely talked to me and it killed me, i know you’ve moved on and in a way i have too, but a part of me still hopes i’ll run into you one day and you’ll see what you missed out on and everything we could have been if you just gave me a chance.