The Fear
There are so many people say that life is about taking lots of chances and experiences failures, but for me, failures cannot be accepted. I always make a high expectation about myself and everything I have to achieve in a period. For me, there is no second chance if you want to know your limit. Doing everything in your daily life as if it is the last chance is a good way to know where you can stand yourself in real life. I remember when someone said “Be brave! Take risks! Nothing can substitute experience.” That is why I never give myself a second chance for everything I do.
I love to be on top. I cannot easily accept second place, I prefer to be on the first because there is only one winner in real life. Being a winner means we need to give extra energy and time to make it comes to reality. To become better at anything in life, you must be prepared to stretch your comfort zone. In my real life, so far, I always get that first place.
Now, I face a reality that I have to accept the second place. I hate when someone else took my first place away. It was like a punch right on my face. I kept on finding the wrong paths I chose that led me to the second place. One night, I lie awake but my head was paralyzed by the storm that kept on rolling in. I could not find the answer why I failed.
In a gloomy morning, a friend of mine told me my ‘sins.’
“Why can’t you accept the reality that you’re not the winner, now?”
“I can’t accept any places except the first!”
“Come on, wake up! Face the truth that sometimes you should give your place to anyone else. Let them feel what you’ve felt before.”
“But it’s so hard for me to do that.”
“Remember, happiness will always be multiplied when it is divided. Now, I think that you should move on, and come back to reality, face your failure. Being the second doesn’t mean you’re the worst.”
“But you know that I always be the top of the top. I cannot easily adapt myself in that second-place.”
“Bloody hell! Just wake up! You told me that I should never waste my time on unimportant things, now let me remind you. Don't waste your time thinking about what you can't change. Just start over and be new again, honey.”
“Please tell me, why this happened to me.”
“Simple! It is simply because of your fear. You’re afraid of being something you don’t want.”
“How come?”
“When you listened to your fears, you lost your power. You couldn’t remember what a great person you have been. You were dwelling on your bad thoughts too much and you took a decision based on your fears.”
“Yeah, that’s true. I was always proud of my pride.”
“That’s it, girl. Now, it is better to look ahead and prepare than to look back and regret.”
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In everytime, we need someone who can tell us the good and the worst of us, and they are the true friend of us. I will only surround myself with only people who are going to lift me higher. Life is already filled with enough people who want to bring me down.
The greatest mistake I can make in life is to continually fear that I will make one. Sometimes I win, and sometimes I learn, but it is not a failure :)