Nov 17, 2019
It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas. #tistheseason #87degrees #redhair (at Scottsdale, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4-5m4JFKEH/?igshid=1bnv22eljfcrk
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It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas. #tistheseason #87degrees #redhair (at Scottsdale, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4-5m4JFKEH/?igshid=1bnv22eljfcrk
Still hot #7pm #87degrees #elysianpark #echopark #heatwave (at Elysian Park, Los Angeles) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2A4wL-pOFS/?igshid=1av3rjyx2l5xz
87 degrees .. first tube run of the year#tubes#run#creek#fishkill#87degrees#flora&fauna#nature (at Beacon, New York)
It’s so hot out I’m contemplating wearing this as a crop top 👌🏼#87degrees (at Brooklyn, New York)
Chapter 3 - Shooting Star
Smut Warning ;-)
The weeks that followed the party all mesh together in my mind when I look back on them now. I couldn't tell you what was a Wednesday or a Friday, but I can tell you that every day for a while after that was like a dream. I think if every single one of us could permanently live in that summer, we'd all choose to. I remember sitting on my couch, skimming through the channels when Eli and Tally burst in, much like they usually did, without invitation. But I didn't mind. I liked it this way. My parents were usually away on business, so having the apartment to myself was nice. It kind of felt like it was my own. And when my friends were there, I think we all pretended that it /was/ ours and we were all roommates. Thankfully this could be done rent free. "You kiss him?" Eli nudged me and I shoved him back with a smirk. "No! God, I barely know him." I replied, rolling my eyes as if to say 'the audacity!'. "So? Do you even realize how ridiculously obvious it is that you're fucking obsessed with him? It's kinda cute." Tally jumped into the conversation, looking up at me with bright eyes. "I wish /someone/ would learn a thing or two from you. It'd be nice to be obsessed over." Tally huffed, clearly referencing Eli and Eli just scoffed. The two of them sat on the floor while looking up at me on the couch. "I'm not /obsessed/ with him. Hoy shit, guys." I argued and right as the sentence left my mouth I felt my cellphone vibrate in my pocket. I immediately grabbed it out, looking at the screen, only to see a text from Ren. "Suuuuuure you're not!" Tally sang. I ignored her and unlocked my phone. "Can you even read it with all the cracks still there?" Eli laughed, reclining next to his girlfriend and getting more comfortable. It really was becoming alittle annoying trying to read between the cracks in my phone screen, but I wasn't about to bother Ren anout it again. I doubt he even had a friend that could help me anyways. And honestly, I didn't want to get rid of them in the first place. I kind of saw them as a memory. Maybe I was becoming alittle obsessed...
Ren: what're u doin? Johni: just hangin at my place w Eli and Tally, u? Ren: I want to see you.
My gut twisted when I read Ren's reply and the sudden change in the way he was typing. He usually abbreviated and used lowercase, but with that sentence, it changed. It was almost as if he was trying to convey how much he meant that statement. Or atleast I hoped that was it. "What's it say?" Tally asked, scooting closer. "He wants to see me." I answered, simply staring at the screen, not sure what to reply with. "Oh! Invite him over!" Tally suggested, getting alittle more excited. "Really? You guys wouldn't care?" I asked, not too sure of the idea myself yet. I had seen Ren only a few times since the party. Once we went to get coffee together and it wasn't any more than just a /hang out/ type of thing. Even though it really was nice just getting to talk to him alone. The next few times we had met up at his job and I had hung around for his lunch break. But other than that, I hadn't really had time to truly get to know him any better and I had no idea how my friends would act around him. "Of course not! I wouldn't mind at all! It could be like a uh... double date kinda thing!" Tally ran her fingers through her air and eyed my facial expressions. The offer was tempting and besides, what else would I reply with? 'No'? I really wanted to see him too and I didn't want to be the one to turn down that chance.
Johni: wanna come over? Ren: u read my mind ;-) "Oh fuck, he used a winking emoji. Guys what the hell does that mean?!" I tossed my phone at Tally and surprisingly she caught it. "Oh my god, he want's the D!" Tally shouted and Eli sat quietly observing in amusement. That winking emoji changed everything. Was he expecting something to happen? There had always been this unspoken tension between us and a part of me felt like this was Ren attempting to make an advance. But with my friends here? No way... I was clearly over thinking things. "...Maybe he's just excited to meet you guys. I don't know, I haven't texted him that much yet! I don't know what emoji's are normal for him to use!" I fell on my side, hitting the couch hard. My nerves were sky rocketting and I only had a few minutes to get control over them before Ren got there. Tally tossed my phone back to me and I let it land on the couch. I didn't want to touch it anymore. "You're thinking way too much, man." Eli finally spoke up. "We'll just hang out, it'll be fine." I could tell he was trying to get me to relax and I guess it was somewhat working. I sat back up, turning my eyes to the tv, and mindlessly watching whatever it was that was on. My brain was in over drive so there was no way I'd be able to focus on a show. "Seriously, Johni, it'll be okay. I'm excited!" Tally smiled. That was easy for them to say. They weren't trying to get with Ren, so of course they had nothing to worry about. I spent the next 20 minutes or so nervously tapping my foot and listening for the doorbell. Every time I heard the elevator make a noise outside our place, I felt like my heart would stop. And finally, it happened. Ren rang the doorbell and all three of us jumped. They had been listening just as intently. "Fuck... fuck, fuck!" I stood up, whispering over and over to myself. "Just go get it!" Tally insisted, standing up with me. She nudged me from behind, pushing me towards the front door. I peaked through the eye hole. I'm not sure why since obviously it was Ren who would be standing there. I stared for a moment, trying to breathe. He looked good. Really good. Stepping back, I shook off my last few nerves while Tally ran back to sit with Eli, as if to look as natural as possible. /God, what is the big deal, just open the damn door./ I spoke to myself in my head and without taking another second, I grabbed the door handle and opened it. Ren stood there, hands in pockets, and his eyes met mine immediately. "Hey, Ren." I smiled, feeling my cheeks already beginning to burn. I prayed he couldn't tell. "Hey!" Ren replied, grinning that stupid grin he always did. Silence appeared only for a moment and then I shooed it away while inviting him in. "Tally and Eli are over there." I motioned as I moved out of the way so Ren could come inside. I closed the door behind us and I watched as he made his way over to my friends. "Hey guys!" Ren was friendly and seemed instantly at home. I could tell he was the type of person to easily fit into any social gathering no matter how big or small. He was charasimatic, something I definitely was not. And there was just something extremely natural about him. He seemed to just flow. "Crack Guy!" Tally waved and I twitched at the mention of that name again. "Hey man, I'm Eli." Eli introduced himself and Ren nodded. "And you're... Tally, right?" Ren asked. Tally confirmed, noticeably happy that he remembered and then Ren turned to me. "Can I talk to you for a second?" Ren asked, his eyes relaying a message I wasn't too clear on. I stared at him for a second and so did my two friends, until I finally answered him. "Uh... yeah! We can uh..." I thought nervously for a second, "we can go to my room? If you want?" I suggested, not even truly realizing what I was saying. All I knew was that he must want to talk in private, otherwise he would have told me what he had to say then and there. "Perfect!" Ren smiled and then he turned to Eli and Tally. "Is that okay guys?" "Sure!" Tally jumped a bit, looking directly at me. When Ren looked to Eli, Tally mouthed 'The D' at me and I wanted to throw up. Whatever it was that Ren wanted to talk about was obviously enough to make him come all the way to my apartment to see me, so it must be somewhat important... right? "No problem, take your time guys." Eli also gave his blessing and I felt like they were taking a parenting role on purpose. Ren turned back to me, clearly waiting for me to guide him to my room and I did just that. My heart was pounding and the red cheeks I had felt before went from fire to inferno. Walking over to my bedroom door, I opened it, allowing him to follow me in. I had just barely shut the door when I felt a pressure on both of my shoulders, forcing me back into the wall. It happened so quickly, I hadn't really even managed to gather what actually happened and then Ren's lips were against mine. He was vicious and it was clear he wasn't joking around the second he forced my lips apart to make way for his tongue. My eyes shut on impulse and I immediately returned the kiss, allowing him to dominate. He tasted amazing and I knew right then it would be a taste I wouldn't easily forget. His lips were soft and even though the kiss was pretty intense, there was something about it that was also gentle and comforting. I wasn't sure how he was able to give me both sensations at once. Ren moaned, pulling away from the kiss and looking me dead in the eyes. I tried to catch my breath, slowly opening my eyes to meet his gaze. There was no way my brain was able to fully process the event that had just occured and there was no way in hell I knew what to say after that. "I want you inside of me." Ren demanded in a whisper and the second I heard those words, the air caught in my throat and I almost choked. Was he drunk? He didn't seem unaware of what he was saying and I didn't taste any liqour when he kissed me. "Wha--" I stuttered. Ren had run his hands down to my wrists and taken a hold of them and I felt his grip tighten. "Fuck me, Johni." Ren's voice remained low, obviously keeping it down since Eli and Tally were right outside in the living room and I felt like my head was going to explode. I was frozen and terrified to make a move, fearing it would be wrong. I had been with a few guys before, but nothing escalated passed a blow job and I had definitely never fucked a guy before. But there was no doubt I had thought about being with Ren and a part of me felt like I was in a some sort of wet dream. But no, this was definitely real and it was definitely happening and any doubt I might have had about him being gay or wanting me vanished in an instant. I stood there, unsure of what to do until I felt his right hand move from my wrist to my crotch, forcing me to weaken underneath his touch. I let my head fall back against the wall and I bit my lip, quickly holding in the moan that almost escaped from my mouth. It was a good thing too because it definitely wouldn't have been quiet and it definitely would have caught Eli's and Tally's attention. "I can't stop thinking about you..." Ren whispered, leaning in to where his lips were nearly pressed against my ear. His hand began to stroke over my jeans and I could feel all of the blood that had once filled my red cheeks, rushing somewhere else. "I know you want me... there's no point in waiting for something you want when you can have it right... now..." Ren's voice was seductive and his breath was warm. I could smell the familiar cologne that had nearly driven me crazy at the party and Ren was right... I did want him. Ren's grip between my legs tightened and I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to contain myself. His touch felt amazing and I truly hadn't even felt anything yet, atleast on bare skin. The hand that still held my other wrist pulled my hand forward, pressing my palm up against his length and I immediately felt how hard he was. I began to return the favor, now stroking him over his jeans and Ren didn't hold back from showing me how much he liked it. His lips moved from my ear down to my neck, at first kissing me but slowly turning into sucking. I could feel his teeth gently nip against my neck and this only caused me to stroke him harder before deperately grabbing at the button on his jeans to undo them. I hadn't even realized he was already steps ahead of me as I felt my jeans fall to my ankles, my underwear following. Ren moaned against my skin while I finally got his pants undone and returned the favor of undressing him. The two of us stumbled over to my bed, nearly collapsing, me ontop of him. There was no fight for dominence. It was obvious he wanted me to take control. I surprised myself however, my adrenaline taking over as I crashed my lips into his again. We ripped at each other's shirts, tearing those off as well until we were completely naked against each other. I wasn't nervous and I wasn't shy anymore. It felt as if this was supposed to be happening and each second we became more and more ravenous of each other. Finally, Ren turned on his side, motioning for me to take my place behind him. His eyes never left mine and I swear I could hear both of our hearts pounding along with each other. I think we were both nervous in that moment, but also excited, and ready. I watched as Ren gripped the sheets beneath us as I slowly entered him, making sure not to hurt him. I had never actually done this, but I could tell from the grunts and whimpers Ren made into a pillow he had grabbed I was doing it right. That's when the wave of pleasure washed over me and I felt like I had never felt before. No feeling on this earth had ever been that good and my hips began moving on their own. I tried my best to keep my mouth shut, but finally the moans slowly started escaping my lips as well. The pleasure was too great and it completely overwhelmed me. "Ah.. fuck.." Ren's breathing became heavier and I tried to refocus my brain on my movements so that I might have somewhat control over them, but that became harder with every thrust. Slowly, I went deeper inside of him, the tightening sensation growing. "Don't stop." Ren begged beneath me, the desperation in his voice causing my hormones to lose even more control. My chest was hot and Ren positioned himself more on his side so I had better entry, giving me the freedom to move in and out of him with more speed. Every sound he made was like music to my ears, I had never heard something so beautiful. Ren reached one of his hands back, grabbing mine and intertwining our fingers as we became one in that moment. I could feel the sweat from my body mix with his and from the noises he was making, I could tell he was close. Suddenly, Ren turned completely onto his stomach, arching himself up, giving me the best access I had experienced yet. It felt so incredible, moving in and out of him and hitting deeper every time. Our hands still gripped onto one another while my other hand held him down. Having the control was turning me on even more. Rens hand squeezed onto mine, his moans becoming more and more desperate until finally, he released which almost immediately caused me to do the same. Panting, I fell into him, my chest warm against his back, keeping myself inside of him. The two of us lay there for what seemed like forever just trying to catch our breath. My vision was blurry and every ounce of ecstasy flowed through me. It was pure bliss and my heart wouldnt stop pounding. If I could have lived in a moment forever, it would have been that one. It was magical and there was absolutely nothing wrong in the world. Finally, Ren slowly moved himself away from me and turned around. We were now face to face and like usual, I couldn't stop staring at him. His hair was wet against his forehead and his soft, silver eyes melted into mine with the purest look I think I had ever gotten from him. He didn't have to speak and neither did I. There weren't words to express what the two of us felt anyways. And that day is probably the one I return to the most and try my hardest to erase. But no matter how hard I try, it still stays there. I've removed the sheets, rearranged my furniture, painted the walls, but that day still remains. It's probably the one I regret the most. But in the moment, when Ren and I lay there in silence, like we had on the roof, I felt like everything in the world had decided to work in my favor. The happiness was so powerful, I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to merely even taste a percentage of it again. I loved him and I knew in that moment, I was /in/ love with him. Ren had appeared into my life and completely taken over it. Maybe I was obsessed, but how could I not be? This boy was from another realm and some how, for some reason he had chosen me. I wish now, more than anything, that he had never done that.