#9.2.2016

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Campus of Loyola. (By: Susie G) 9.2.2016

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I went to therapy today. We ended up talking a lot about me being angry at my mother for trying to help me and baby me when it's too late and what she does in reality is disrupting my stability and the life I'm making for myself. It did help a bit, I guess. I hope.

I did feel better after the session. L said that last session I said while being in my dark place that this is safe, because I know things can't get worse. She at first assumed I willingly(?) stayed there, but then I started listing things I did to get better. I got through about 2/3 and how long said method lasted and asked if she wants more. Then she understood that I don't want to be there (how I feel now but) but I truly don't know how to get out and she suggested imagining the negative feelings as something outside of me and then the thing shrinking while I grow. I think I'm going to make a simple comic about this.

I went for dinner with the family and gran, which was surprisingly funny. Even though most of the jokes we on the expense of me eating crepes filled with walnuts and the shells I found (multiple in each bite). The waiter was super sweet and when he learned of the walnut shells, he didn't charge for the crepes, which is like finding a unicorn in Slovakia, ok?

Then we prepared for SO's job interview tomorrow and then I talked with a friend about their trouble. I offered to be their dad, because they have shitty parents and I'm glad they took me up on the offer. I do like taking care of people and knowing all the venting helped them gives me a positive boost. I think I'm slowly getting better, because I had enough spoons for this. (When I'm honest, all I did was mostly listen and tell them that they are normal for feeling that way, which is important too but somehow less taxing for me than helping someone find a solution.)

If all goes well, I might be able to pull off the panels in two weeks. I'd like that as I love doing panels.

L got me a shorter extra session in a week (w00t!). I've learned that she also works privately as well (outside the national health care system) and that one session is not as expensive as I feared so when I get really bad, I can get an emergency session. I'll simply set money aside for this kind of emergency. *nods* I'd say that was a pretty good Tuesday.

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