#9.3.20

[lillmossymoth]

~ first (failed) attempts at cyanotypes ~

[brianajungwirthinstagram]

B recently followed this account

They are a consulting agency which helps with VIP/Influencer Marketing & Events

They create individualised client strategies using red carpet, street style placement and product seeding

9.3.20

[brianajungwirthinstagram]

B changed her insta profile picture to this photo she recently posted/now deleted

9.3.2020

[brianajungwirthinstagram]

🤍🤍🤍

B via IG ⎮ 9.3.2020

[edo-vivendum]

Not everything is about me, but I still want to be noticed and acknowledged when I'm in pain.

[edo-vivendum]

I was supposed to have a driving lesson today but instead I'm paralyzed in fear and S told me "well would you rather learn how to drive or end up having to live with your parents" which is very much the reality, but it also leaves me stuck between two scary things and feeling helpless. I know I'm not helpless. I'm going to talk to my therapist early next week about tactics or something i can do. But right now I just feel so stuck and S doesn't get it. He thinks I'm just avoiding, and he's irritated and frustrated that I won't try. But I get it. I'm frustrated too. I just don't know how to motivate myself and unfreeze myself. I could just give myself permission to skip the lesson today (which is already decided) and just go back to playing eso but then I feel guilty for letting myself off the hook so instead I'm just laying here beating myself up. Cause that's productive. But somehow my anxiety mind has convinced me that it is what I deserve.

[thefakejeffreyazoff]

Jeffrey commented on randegerber insta post. 9.3.20

[whereothersdontmind]

Got burnt on yesterday’s 13er hike but defs worth it. Surprised I haven’t posted any of my hikes on here, and should defs start doing that