#9:33pm

[ajyal-azez]

" لا بأس، هذا المرّ سيمرّ "

أقولها لنفسيّ، في كلِّ مرة تخدشني به الحياة.

[ajyal-azez]

سأفتح المجالَ لعقلي أن ينفصل عن الواقع ويصقل نفسه بنفسه، أن يتخلَّى عن جميع المصالح الخارجيَّة ويرتدَّ عن السعي لأن يجوزه القبول من الآخرين، سأدعُه يهنا بالهدوء البعيد كلَّ البعد عن القضايا العامة أو الخاصة.

[40-bee-07-daily-blog]

Mac & cheese and chicken for dinner

[diaries-of-a-hopeless-soul]

Entry #73: December 24th, 2019 (9:33pm)

So it's Christmas Eve at my aunt's. We just finished dinner. Earlier on the little ones opened gifts like they do every year. This year however, my cousin's girlfriend brought her daughter Katrina, and while all the others were opening their gifts I could see the look on her face when she thought no one was watching. It wasn't a look of sadness, anger, or jealousy. It was a look of loneliness. I have the same look every year, I just know how to hide it. It's the look of someone who feels like they don't belong, like this whole scene is a lie or a cruel trick. I understand what she was feeling, and I wanted to comfort her. I hope she finds a way to get through these gatherings every year cause I really haven't. I just go through them in a daze, like it didn't happen. Anyways, I really hope she finds a way to do what I couldn't.

[closetgremlin]

There’s some post on here that talks about how the USA is culturally Christian, and that even if you aren’t Christian in America then (at least to an extent) you perceive things in a Christian/-esque way (or something to that effect) - I’ve got a thought on that. An example, if you will.

So I’ve been watching ghost hunting videos the past few days (Buzzfeed Unsolved: Supernatural and Ghost Adventures, to be specific) and I’ve noticed that they tend to use Christian-centric/based language during their investigations. For example, both mention that a common injury caused by hauntings are 3 scratch marks on the body, like a claw mark, and that it’s meant to “mock the holy trinity” (which refers to the father, the son, and the Holy Spirit, or God, Jesus, and… I think the spirit of the religion?). Granted, I don’t know if any other religions have a similar notion of a “holy trinity,” I’m not very well-versed in types of religion after all, but based on my knowledge of Christianity (I was raised with it, more so as an early elementary kid, but the family practice wasn’t very strict and devout) the reference just seems rather pointed there.

I don’t know, just an observation.

[ajyal-azez]

‏أنا متعب من المكوث في المكان الخطأ، من التعايش مع الأشياء المتاحة، لا المرغوبة، متعب من حمل ثقيل تجره روحي كل يوم، إلى كل مكان.

[the-run-away-dreamer]

Weekend Cottage

It’s the most ridiculous thing.

I want to go on a weekend away with you. Just you and me in a neutral location. A little cottage somewhere, self catering, country kitchen, king size bed and fields. Lots and lots of fields. Maybe some trees. We could go on walks and talk, or picnic or just something. We don’t even need to leave the cottage. We can stay in the king size bed for two days straight and only leave for bathroom breaks and food. I wanna eat breakfast with you, and cook with you. Well, hand you things while you teach me to cook things. I wanna lie on your chest and listen to your heartbeat as we watch your favourite movies. I wanna learn you. I wanna learn how you make your food and your coffee and how you think. I wanna learn the important stuff and the silly stuff. I wanna know your childhood nickname and what you wanted to be when you grew up. I want to hear about your hopes and dreams and fears.

Its the most ridiculous thing, I want to run away with you. Even if it’s only for a weekend.

[vvca-blog]

..

When you wana spend time with someone but can't muscle up the courage to say anything because you've been so accustomed to being on your own that now you're socially awkward and don't really have much to say. What a Friday... all I wana do is vibe to some music enjoy some whiskey and just chill. It ain't gotta be all the extra(unless we take it there).