#9yom

[9yearsonmars]

Not You

This could be something better,

We could be ...

So much more, so much more,

Something special.

So I'd be a fool to say that I ain't looking for,

Someone who ...

Someone who's not,

You.

[9yearsonmars]

Move

So I'm definitely moving,

My rent has been raised from a ...

"I cant buy everything I wanna buy" $990 per month ...

to an

"I can't afford to eat" $1190 per month.

That's a little ridiculous, seeing how I moved in years ago at $750.

My two bedroom townhome has treated me well, but it's definitely time to go.

I hate the idea of living in an apartment, but it's looking like the best deal right now.

My current lease is up in October, so I have to find something SOON!

I just went to a place today, that was nice.

But no washer???

No dryer???

WTF!!

I have to pay to wash my clothes ... NOT COOL!

But it does have a dish washer .... SOO COOL!

I'm still undecided if that's an even trade though.

It has a balcony with an amazing view,

The bathroom is almost exactly the same as my current one.

Of course the rooms and closets are a little smaller, but that's not really an issue.

I checked out a 1 Bedroom ($880) and a 2 Bedroom ($950-$1100) and they both looked pretty snazzy.

BUT...

The biggest worry I have, is HOW THE FUCKKKKKK

Will I fit everything I have, into one of these apartments???!!!???

[9yearsonmars]

The Bay

Sara wants to move to California, live with her sister in San Francisco.

"San Francisco this, San Francisco that"

She asked me once to go with her, and typical me...

-_- ...

No words... just

-_- ... she knows that in my mind I'm saying "Yeah right"

So she never asked again.

But we both know, that if I were to say yes, then we would be on our way,

On our way to the bay.

But that's not happening, at least I don't see it.

I tell her all the time,

"Just go, do whats best for you, stop worrying about me, live your life" ...

Knowing full well, that If she were to leave,

It'll just lead

To more miserable moments, without the company of someone I've grown to be comfortable around.

And I'm never,

comfortable around ... anyone

I know she's going through it, after losing Tamira, and her mother not being supportive,

Sometimes I feel like I have to be her rock, we've gone through so much this past year, it's crazy.

But if she ever left for San Francisco,

I'd do that thing I do, where I hide my true feelings,

And let her go be free,

Then hate myself years later,

saying ...

I wish she stayed with me.

[9yearsonmars]

I speak from my heart, so forgive me if it sounds like BROKEN English.

Mars City

[9yearsonmars]

The Right Woman

Some people steer clear of love, because it isn't something that they are ready for.

They're not ready to Commit...  Settle... Change.

I on the other hand, steer clear of love for the exact opposite reason. I believe that the best things come, when you least expect them to; when you're minding your own damn business, in search of...nothing...

Then just like that...BAM...there it is...That thing...you know that thing you've searched for so many times, but have yet to find.

That thing, you've given up on...for now at least

There it is...Really...There it is.

So when that pretty gal, comes along and smacks me in the face, then abruptly asks me if I'm ready to dedicate the rest of my life to loving her...

I'd willingly confess my heart to her..."Yes" with no hesitation.

But only for the right girl...

...I'm sorry, woman I mean.

[9yearsonmars]

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Way Too Serious

Produced By: C.Cobb & T.Lawson, Jr. Written By: T.Lawson, Jr.

Ratings/Review:

I haven't made a record in...ummm, I don't know...over a week, maybe two. Hopefully I'll be able to knock out more than a handful, in the next two weeks. In the meantime, here's the last track I worked on for 2010. I haven't really gone into editing or anything...and as usual, I'm undecided about the sound, and the direction I want to take the lyrics. But I'm pretty sure I'll figure it out once I get a little inspiration.

Topic:

I just got out of something, that was meant to last forever, so by no means am I looking to dive back into the relationship pool, head first. The time we spent getting to know one other, was great; but unfortunately I can't give you what you need right now. You're a queen, and any guy would be lucky to have you. One day I'll look back, and realize what a mistake I've made...but right now a commitment is just..."WAY TOO SERIOUS"

Lyrics:

Now you want to love me But I'm in no condition to even attempt to love you back girl So you should hold it off Scratch that, matter fact, we should call it off This whole thing, cause you got a nigga brain running Let me set the record straight, like Usain running I ain't ready for your love girl, I ain't ready for just one girl Now I dont want to put you in a position Where you finding out that its difficult to make your decision I done been there, done that, fell in love too many times SO at this moment girl I'm through with commitments So you run away Why cant this girl, just run away Cause I don't wanna be the guy to break your heart girl So whe should end it here, before it starts girl

Now I don't want to lead you on, and make it seem Like it's something more, than what it be Don't take it way too serious It's nothing, way too serious Now I don't want to lead you on, and make it seem Like it's something more, than what it be Don't take it way too serious Cause it's nothing, way too serious

Now we should end it all, here...now Before we fall in love, here...now Before it gets way too serious, way too serious Now we should call it off, here...now Just forget it all, here...now Before it gets way too serious, way too serious

[9yearsonmars]

And if I could, I'd come and visit, but wouldn't that complicate this whole break-up shit?

Mars City

[9yearsonmars]

Crying in the bed over you, just ain't manly...but I don't give a damn

Trey Songz