Mr sandman (give me someone to hold)
pairing: Steve Harrington x reader
Summary: you finally make your way back to Steve
A/n tag list is closed guys sorry also sorry for the people who i couldnāt tag
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youāve never been this confused before. Memories of two completely different worlds and completely different timelines have fallen into one like pages of a book thatās been bound wrong. You have memories of Steve, messy and chaotic. And off Henry all so perfect. How do you know which memories are real? How do you know which part of your memories to believe?
āYouāve been quiet,ā Henry says, tilting his head. His glasses slip slightly down the bridge of his nose, and he doesnāt push them back up.
You blink. The room feels too still.
These memories must be real. This must be your life. Henry is your husband. You love him. You mustāwhy else would you have married him?
You remember the wedding like it was yesterday. The soft music. The vows. The way Henry looked at you like you were the only person in the world. Holly was there. Derek too. And the other kids. Laughing, running between the chairs, throwing petals like confetti.
And⦠thatās it. Thatās everyone.
Itās strange, isnāt it? A wedding with only children. No parents. No friends. No officiant you can picture. Just kids. You try to remember when they arrivedāHolly and Derek and the others. It was after the wedding, wasnāt it?
Wasnāt it?
You glance at Henry. Heās watching you, patient, like he always is. Like heās waiting for you to remember something important.
But now that you think about it, you havenāt seen anyone else in⦠how long? Weeks? Months? Years? You try to summon a faceāany faceābut they all blur.
Your voice comes out smaller than you expect. āWhen was the last time we had visitors?ā
Henry smiles, but it doesnāt reach his eyes. āVisitors? Well i think it mustāve been last month. When my parents came. Why?ā
His parents? What are their names? Why donāt you know them?
āRight, i was just wondering. Maybe they could come around soon again? See the kids?ā
Henryās smile tightens, just slightly. āTheyāre very busy,ā he says, voice smooth. āYou know how they are.ā
But you donāt. Thatās the problem. You donāt know how they are. You canāt picture their faces, canāt summon a single memory of them. Not a birthday card. Not a phone call. Not even a name.
You nod anyway, because thatās what youāre supposed to do. āRight. Of course.ā
Something inside you flinches. A warning bell, low and urgent. Donāt tell him. Donāt mention the memories. Donāt say Steveās name. Donāt admit that youāre not sure which life is yours.
You force a small smile. āI think Iām still a little dazed from the fall,ā you say, keeping your voice light. āIām sorry.ā
Henryās expression softens, āDonāt be sorry,ā he says, reaching across the table to brush your hand. āNext time, just ask me when you need to reach something. Thatās what Iām here for.ā
You nod again, but your skin prickles where he touched you. Familiar but unfamiliar at the same time.
He brushes your knuckles with his thumb. āYou know I worry about you,ā he says. āYouāve always been a little⦠fragile.ā
That word lands like a stone in your stomach.
Fragile.
Youāve never been fragile. Not in those other memories. You remember being messy, loud, stubborn, alive. You remember yelling at Steve across a crowded parking lot, angry, seething. Youāve never fought with henry before. Still. here, you flinch.
You apologize for things you donāt remember doing. You hesitate before speaking, before moving, before asking. You act like youāre fragile now. So maybe you are. why would you believe those other memories over this life? This house? This man who brings you tea and calls you darling and tells you to rest?
Why would you believe those memories over this perfect man? Because itās too perfect, something inside you says. Because in the memories you were angry and cried and everything was messy. you had friends. You had a job. You had a favorite diner and a chipped mug and a keychain Steve won you at a fair. You had a life that didnāt feel like it was being performed for you. Here, everything is soft and quiet and curated. The house is always clean. Henry is always calm. Everything feels like a dream, or a trance.
āI knowā you tell him ābut thatās why i have you, right?ā You look up at him, eyes wide, hopefulābecause some part of you wants this to be real. Needs it to be. Because if Henry loves you, if this life is real, then maybe the confusion doesnāt matter. Maybe you donāt need to dig. Maybe you can stay here, in the quiet, in the calm, in the version of your life where someone always brings you tea and tells you to rest.
Henry smiles, warm and reassuring. āOf course,ā he says, brushing a strand of hair behind your ear. āYouāll always have me.ā
And for a moment, you let yourself believe it. Let yourself lean into the comfort of his touch, the steadiness of his voice. You donāt want to know the truth. Not if it means losing this. Not if it means waking up to something colder, messier, lonelier.
But then you remembered something else something irritating and stubborn or rather someone else. The finally his name came to you again. Dustin. God that kid. Heād laugh in your face if he saw you sitting here, wrapped in a cardigan you donāt remember buying, sipping tea you didnāt ask for, nodding along like a porcelain doll. Heād call you out in a heartbeat. Probably with some ridiculous Star Wars metaphor and a mouthful of cereal. You almost smile. Almost.
Because Dustin wouldnāt like Henry. Not because Henryās meanāhe isnāt. Heās polite. Polished. Perfect. But Dustin doesnāt trust perfect. He trusts real. And Henry⦠Henry is curated.
You miss Dustin. You miss his chaos. His loyalty. The way heād show up at your door with a busted walkie-talkie and a conspiracy theory and a bag of stale chips, like that was normal.
You blink hard, trying to hold onto the memory before it slips away again.
āI should rest.ā
Henry nods, his smile gentle. āThatās a good idea.ā
You return the smileāsmall, practicedāand rise from your chair. Your legs feel steady, but your mind wobbles like a table with one short leg. You turn toward the stairs, the carpet soft beneath your feet, the house too quiet behind you.
As you climb, you try to remember. Really remember. Before Henry. Before this house. Before the tea and the silence. You close your eyes and reach back.
A trailer park. Gravel crunching under your boots. The sun too bright. Steve yelling, āWipe your feet!ā at Dustin, who was already in his car.
But that wasnāt the last memory. That wasnāt the moment everything changed. That memory doesnāt explain how you got here.
You pause at the top of the stairs, hand on the banister.
Thereās something after that.
A gap.
A flicker.
A moment you canāt quite touch.
Like a dream you almost remember but slips away the harder you chase it.
And thenā
āYou donāt get to give up, not here, not now, you hear me?ā
The words crash into you like a wave. Not Henryās voice. Steveās. Raw, desperate, cracking at the edges. You remember the way he grabbed your shoulders, blood on his temple, eyes wild with fear and love and something that felt like goodbye.
The memory slams into place.
The demogorgons were ramming the door. Youād barricaded it with a dresser, a chair, your own body. Steve had cupped your cheeks, Still trying to convince you that youād grow old together, that this wasnāt the end.
You remember the way he looked at youālike you were the only thing in the world that mattered. And then the door gave away. The demogorgon lunged, all teeth and shadow and rage. Steve shouted somethingāyour name, maybeābut it was too late. He collapsed, unconscious, and you ran to him, dropped to your knees, tried to shake him awake, to scream him back to life.
You remember thinking, This is it. This is how I die.
But the beast didnāt kill you.
It grabbed you.
Its claws wrapped around your ankle like a vice, cold and sharp and wrong. You kicked, screamed, clawed at the floor as it dragged you backward, away from Steve, away from the light, into the dark. You remember the sound of your own voice breaking, the burn of its nails slicing into your skin, the way your fingers scraped uselessly against the floorboards.
And thenānothing.
No pain. No light. Just a sudden, suffocating silence.
Until you woke up here. In this house. With Henry.
You look down at your ankle now. The skin is smooth. No scars. No pain. No sign anything ever happened.
But you remember. You remember the terror. The blood. The fight.
And Steve.
Your knees nearly buckle beneath you.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
You grip the banister like itās the only thing tethering you to gravity. Your breath comes in shallow bursts, your mind racing faster than your body can keep up. If Steve is realāif that memory is realāthen this life is a lie. A trap.
Vecna.
It has to be him. The dragging, the silence, the perfect house with no past. The way your memories were scrubbed clean and replaced with soft lighting and chamomile tea. This is his doing. A cage dressed up like a dream.
But thenāHenry.
What is he? A puppet? someone Vecna controls? Or something worseāsomething that believes it loves you?
And why were the kids here? Why was Holly fucking wheeler in this goddamn place and not with her family?
And thenā
The fox.
Your stomach drops.
The girl that watches you through the window. The red hair. The sharp eyes. Max.
Your Max.
The girl who used to steal your fries and pretend she didnāt care. The one who never said thank you but always showed up. The one who called you her emotional support adult with a smirk and a punch to the arm. The one who never let you lie to yourself.
How could you not have recognized her and why was she here? For so long?
Because you werenāt supposed to.
Because Vecna didnāt want you to.
You walked down the stairs you needed to know if Henry would say something if he was even real. You found him at the head of the table head tilted up looking at the ceiling all around the table were the kids all holding hands in the exact same position. You looked to henry who was also holding the hands off Josh and Debbie āhenry? darling? whatās going on?ā No reply
Panic surged through you. What was he doing to these kids?
You turned and bolted into the kitchen, flinging open drawers, searching for anythingāanythingāto break the spell. Your hand closed around a knife. You froze.
No. No, you couldnāt.
You shoved it aside and grabbed the cast iron frying pan instead. Heavy. Real. Solid.
You stormed back into the dining room, heart in your throat. āFuck,ā you muttered, and without another thought, you swung.
CRACK.
Henryās head snapped sideways with the blow. His body slumped forward, hands slipping from the childrenās.
The room shifted.
The kids gasped in unison, eyes snapping open like someone had flipped a switch. Holly was the first to move, stumbling back from the table, blinking rapidly.
āY/N?ā she breathed.
You dropped the pan. āHoly shit.ā
Holly ran to you, throwing her arms around your waist. āYou remember?ā
āYeah. Yes. Fuck. Sorryādonāt curse. Shit. He wonāt be out for long. We have to go.ā
Debbie stood, eyes narrowed. āOne of the monsters took over Mrs. Whatsit.ā
You scoffed, breathless. āIām not a fucking monster, and Iām not fucking Mrs. Whatsit either.ā
Josh blinked. āSheās cursing a lot.ā
āYeah, well,ā you snapped, already moving toward the hallway, āI just woke up from a fake life and hit my dream husband with a skillet, so maybe give me a break Joshā
you heard Derek chuckle softly āi like her better like thisā
āShut up Derek!ā The table echoed
āGuys, this isnāt Mrs. Whatsit!ā a girl cried out, voice high and trembling. āMrs. Whatsit wouldnāt be this mean!ā
You spun on her, eyes blazing. āMean?ā you scoffed. āI just saved you.ā
āFrom what?ā another boy asked, his voice small but defiant.
You pointed a shaking finger toward the head of the table. āFrom him!ā
As if on cue, Henry stirred. His fingers twitched. Then, slowly, he sat up, brushing a hand through his hair like heād just woken from a nap, not been knocked unconscious.
āDarling,ā he said, voice smooth as ever, āI thought you were resting.ā
You stepped in front of Holly, shielding her with your body. āI was,ā you said, forcing a brittle smile. āImagine my surprise when I came downstairs for a glass of water and found you conducting a sĆ©ance with a table full of hypnotized children.ā
āYouāre confused again, darling,ā he said gently, like he was soothing a child after a nightmare. āYouāve been under so much stress. The fallāā
He reached for your hand, the same hand he used to cradle when he brought you tea, when he whispered that you were safe, that you didnāt need to remember.
But this time, you yanked it back like heād burned you.
āThe only reason Iām confused,ā you snapped, voice rising, āis because youāve been fucking with my head!ā
Henryās expression twitchedājust for a secondābut then he smoothed it over with that same infuriating calm. āYou are happy hereāā
āYou donāt get to tell me that!ā you shouted, the words ripping from your throat like glass.
A flicker of something darkerārage, maybeāflashed through his eyes. And then it was gone, replaced by a cold, patronizing smile.
āChildren,ā he said, voice syrupy and false, āMrs. Whatsit is confused. Sheās had quite the tumble, and I think she must be concussed. Iāll take her upstairs.ā
Before you could react, his hand shot out and clamped around your wristātight, bruising. You gasped, tried to pull away. āFuck you!ā you spat, struggling, but his grip was iron.
He dragged you up the stairs, your feet stumbling to keep up, your free hand clawing at the banister, the wall, anything. The kidsā voices faded behind you, muffled by the pounding of your heart.
When he reached the bedroom, he flung the door open and shoved you inside. You stumbled, hit the floor hard, palms scraping against the wood. The door slammed shut behind you with a finality that made your stomach twist.
Henry stood over you, breathing hard. His face was no longer calm. It was alive with fury.
āIs this what you wanted, Y/N?ā he hissed.
You froze.
Heād never said your name before.
Not once. Not in all the time youād lived in this dream. It had always been darling, sweetheart, love. Never you.
āAnswer me,ā he snapped, voice sharp and cracking.
You pushed yourself up, hair falling into your face, your body trembling with adrenaline. āDoes it look like I want any of this?ā
He paced, hands clenched at his sides. āI saved you,ā he growled. āYou were living a miserable life. Working yourself to death for scraps. Your mother had just died. You were alone. You hated yourself.ā
You stared at him, chest heaving. āBut it was my life! And you donāt get to take that from me!ā
He stopped. āYou were drowning.ā
āI was grieving,ā you said. āI was trying. And youāyou took that from me. You took me from me.ā
āI gave you peace.ā
āYou gave me a lobotomy,ā you snapped. āYou erased my pain, yeahābut you erased everything else with it. My memories. My friends. My choices. You made me into someone you could control.ā
Henryās face twisted. āYou donāt understand what Iāve done for you.ā
You rose to your feet, every muscle in your body trembling, but your voice was steady. āNo,ā you said. āI do understand. You built a world where Iād never fight back. Where Iād be grateful to be kept. Where Iād forget who I was, what Iād lost, what I loved. But I remember now. I remember who I am. And Iām not yours.ā
Before he could respond, a sudden force slammed into him like a freight train. His body lifted off the ground and hurtled backward, crashing through the bedroom door and tumbling down the stairs in a blur of limbs and rage.
You stood frozen for a beat, heart hammering, until a voice called out from the top of the stairs.
āY/N?ā
You turned, breath catching in your throat.
āEl?ā
She stood there, framed in the hallway light, blood trickling from her nose, eyes wide and fierce
āHoly shit,ā you breathed. āAre you actually here?ā
āYes,ā she said, already moving toward you.
āHow?ā you asked, stunned. āHow did youā?ā
She shook her head, grabbing your wrist. āIāll explain later. We need to get out of here. Now.ā
She didnāt wait for your answer. She yanked you forward, and together you sprinted down the stairs, your feet barely touching the steps.
Henry was already pushing himself up from the floor, blood at the corner of his mouth, eyes black with fury. āWhere are they?ā he growled, voice no longer human.
El didnāt flinch.
She stepped in front of you, her stance wide, her chin lifted, shielding you the way youād shielded Holly not long ago. Her voice was calm, but it cut through the air like a blade.
āWith Max,ā she said. āSafe.ā
You flinched as Henry raised a hand, and El was suddenly lifted into the air, her limbs rigid, her boots dangling inches above the floor. Her breath hitched, her jaw clenched.
āWhere are they?ā Henry repeated, his voice low and venomous.
āI told you,ā El ground out, her voice strained with pain. āWith Max. Far away from here.ā
You stood frozen, heart hammering, watching the scene unfold like a nightmare you couldnāt wake from.
Elās eyes locked on Henryās. āYou canāt believe it, can you?ā she said, her voice trembling but defiant. āThat theyād ever see through your lies.ā
Henryās expression flickered.
āThatās why you take children,ā El continued. āBecause you think theyāre easy to mold. Because you think they have weak minds.ā
It took you a second to realize what she was doing. A distraction. A setup.
And then you saw itāa flicker of rainbow light, just at the edge of your vision, shimmering through the dining room like a mirage. You reached out, hesitantly, pinky extended.
It disappeared.
Shit.
You hadnāt realized El could do this. Or maybe it wasnāt just her. Henry rolled up his sleeve, and your breath caught in your throat. His hand twisted, skin splitting until it became something monstrousālong, blackened claws where fingers should be.
You gasped.
āDonāt worry, honey,ā Henry said, his voice syrupy and cruel. āIāll take this memory out of your mind later. And the others as well.ā
He raised the claw, hovering it above Elās face.
And thenā
El dropped.
Her body crumpled to the floor. Immediately henry walked over to the dining room A strange, curling mist hovered in the air for a heartbeatāthen vanished. He barely had time to react before she flung him backward with a force that flung everything off the table and him on it.
āNow!ā she shouted.
From the hallway, a girl burst into the roomāshort, sharp-eyed, her presence like a blade drawn in the dark. A knife gleamed in her hand as she leapt over the wreckage, landing above Henryās crumpled form.
āHello, brother,ā she said, voice low and cold.
But before the blade could fallā
Henry vanished.
āWhere did he go?ā you asked, breathless, heart still pounding.
El didnāt answer. She just grabbed your hand, her grip firm and urgent. āWe have to go,ā she said, and then she was runningāpulling you with her, out of the house, through the back door, and into the woods.
You stumbled after her, feet catching on roots and moss, until the house was gone behind you and the trees opened up into a clearing youād never seen before.
Thatās when it hit you.
Youād never made it this far.
Not once.
Not past the garden. Not past the white picket fence. Not past the illusion.
āWaitāā someone hissed just as you burst through the bushes, sunlight blinding after the darkness of the woods.
You stumbled into the clearing, breath ragged, and before you could even register where you were, arms wrapped around you tight.
āY/N!ā a voice gasped.
You blinked, and there she wasāMax. Real. Solid. Her red hair glinting in the sun, her eyes wide with relief.
āMissed you,ā she said, her voice cracking with emotion.
You let out a breathless laugh, hugging her back. āI missed you too.ā
She pulled away just enough to look you over, then turned to El and the other girl beside her
āDid you find him?ā Max asked.
The girl shook her head, her expression tight. āHe just vanished.ā
Maxās jaw clenched. āThen heās back in the real world. He can come back. Will come back.ā
āHow far to the cave?ā El asked.
āNot far,ā Max said, already scanning the trees. āCāmon.ā
You ran and ran, Elās hand locked tightly in yours, her grip the only thing anchoring you to the moment.
Thenādum dum.
A low, rhythmic thud echoed through the trees.
You skidded to a stop, chest heaving. āWhatās that?ā you asked, eyes darting through the trees.
Elās face was pale. āHopper.ā
You blinked āwhat?ā Wasnāt hopper dead?
Max caught up, her brows furrowed. āWhy is he signaling?ā
El didnāt answer.
Maxās eyes narrowed. āThatās not a signal.ā
And then, without warning, Elās hand dissolved in yoursāher fingers turning to smoke, her body unraveling like mist in sunlight. You gasped, reaching for her, but she was already gone.
āNo, no, noāEl!ā
The other girl (Kali, though you still didnāt know her name)
vanished next, her silhouette flickering like a dying flame before it, too, disappeared.
You were left standing in the clearing, stunned, surrounded by the kids, all of them looking to you now.
Max grabbed your shoulders, her eyes fierce. āY/N, listen to me.ā
āWhatāwhat just happened?ā you stammered.
āTake them to the cave.ā
āThe cave?ā you echoed, heart racing.
āHolly knows where. Theyāre safe in the cave,ā and then max disappeared as well
The kids around you were unraveling fastātears, shouting, frantic glances toward the trees like they expected the shadows to reach out and grab them next.
āOkay, okay. Guys, calm down!ā you said, raising your voice over the chaos. āGuysāā
āThe black thing took them!ā a girl shrieked, her voice cracking.
āShut the fuck up!ā you snapped, sharper than you meant to beābut it worked. The clearing went still. The girlās mouth clamped shut, eyes wide.
You took a breath, trying to steady your own panic. āThank you. The plan hasnāt changed. Weāre still going to the cave. Thatās where weāre safe.ā
You turned to Holly, who was pale but standing tall, her little fists clenched at her sides.
āHolly,ā you said, gentler now. āLead the way.ā
She nodded quickly. āYes. Okay. Follow me.ā
Without another word, she turned and started toward the trees, her small figure cutting a path through the underbrush with surprising certainty.
āāāāā-
Steve couldnāt believe how close he was to getting you back.
Every step he took across the jagged, otherworldly terrain sent a jolt through his legs, but he barely felt it. The sky above him was odd and the ground cracked but none of it mattered. Not the shifting shadows, not Mike bickering with Nancy about how she has two guns and he has none. All he could think about was you.
Your eyes, the way they crinkled when you laughed. The way your hair used to fall into your face when you were focused on something. The way your hand fit into his like it was made to be there. The way you used to look at him like he was something more than the guy who always messed up. the rocky world stretched out like a shattered mirror, fractured and endless. Somewhere here, was your body. Empty now a shell. But heād get you back.
Then Will dropped to his knees, his breath catching in his throat like something had punched the air from his lungs. He clutched his chest, eyes wide, unfocused.
āMrs. Byers!ā Steve gasped, voice cracking.
Joyce was at his side in an instant, her hands on his shoulders. āWill!ā she cried. āWhatās going on? What do you see?ā
The others crowded aroundāMike, Lucas, Robin, Nancy, Jonathan, Dustin. Willās voice was thin, distant. āHenry⦠heās made it to the cave.ā
Willās eyes fluttered, his fingers twitching like he was trying to hold onto something slipping through him. āHeās found them. Holly. The kids. Heās there.ā
A beat of silence.
Then Mike leaned in closer, desperate. āWhat about El? Kali? Max? Are they with them?ā
Will shook his head slowly. āNo. I donāt see them. But⦠I see Y/N.ā
Steveās heart stopped.
āSheās helping the kids out of the cave,ā Will said, voice trembling. āBut Henryāheās close. Heās right there.ā
Steve froze.
āDonāt hurt me,ā you said, voice trembling as Henry loomed over you, his shadow stretching long across the cave wall.
āSweetheart,ā he murmured, brushing a strand of hair behind your ear with a tenderness that made your skin crawl, āIād never.ā
āPlease,ā you whispered, āleave them alone.ā
He sighed, almost regretful. āNow you know I canāt.ā
āWhy not?ā you asked, voice cracking. āTheyāre just kids.ā
āThatās why,ā he said, and there was something final in his voice. Something monstrous.
Your hand closed around the handle of the old teapot beside you You didnāt think. You just moved.
The teapot shattered against his head with a sickening crack.
āI fucking hate tea,ā you spat, and ran.
āGo! Go! GO!ā you screamed, sprinting after the kids.
Derek stumbled ahead of you, eyes wide. āSheās insane!ā
āSheās a badass,ā Holly corrected, grabbing his hand and pulling him forward.
You caught up to them, herding them toward the narrow tunnel that went under the ground Behind you, you heard Henry roarāmore beast than man now.
āMove!ā you shouted again, your voice echoing off the stone.
āShe hit him,ā Will said, a flicker of awe in his voice. āShe hit him with a teapot. Sheās okay. Sheās running.ā
Steveās heart surged.
āSheās fighting,ā Will added. āSheās still her.ā
āāāāā
Everything that happened until you woke up was a blurāfractured images and half-formed sounds, like a dream slipping through your fingers. You remembered Hollyās scream, the fire poker clutched in her tiny hands, the way she drove it into Henryās side with more fury than fear. You remembered Derek pulling your arm and guiding you towards the light. You remember the red world and Holly telling you you need to think about what makes you happiest. You remember thinking about Steve, and Dustin and Robin and Nancy and Max and El.
You remembered running, stumbling, the cave walls pulsing like a heartbeat around you.
And through it all, you swore you could hear Willās voice. Not in your ears, but in your mindāurgent, echoing, like a thread pulling you forward. Sheās running. Sheās fighting. Sheās still her.
Then everything went black.
And nowā
Now, something was being peeled from your face. you couldnāt tell what it was but you could taste something disgusting. You gasped, lungs aching like theyād forgotten how to breathe.
āY/N?ā
The voice cracked. Familiar. Raw.
You blinked, vision swimming, and then arms were around youātight, trembling, real. You knew that scent. That warmth. That voice.
āSteve?ā you rasped, barely above a whisper.
He pulled back just enough to look at you, his face streaked with dirt and tears, eyes wide and shining. āOh my god,ā he breathed. āThank god. Thank god.ā
You tried to sit up, but your limbs felt like lead. He caught you before you could fall, cradling you like something precious. āYouāre okay,ā he said, over and over, like he was trying to convince himself. āYouāre okay. Youāre here.ā
You blinked again, and your eyes finally focused. What the hell was this place?
Steve pressed his forehead to yours, his breath warm and uneven against your skin. His hands trembled where they cupped your face, thumbs brushing away tears you hadnāt realized were falling.
āYouāre so strong, baby,ā he whispered, voice thick with emotion. āYouāre so fucking strong. I thought I lost you. I thoughtāā His voice cracked, and he pulled you closer, like he could anchor himself in your heartbeat. āI love you so much.ā
You blinked up at him, dazed and aching and overwhelmed. āYou found me,ā you breathed, the words barely holding together. āYou really found me.ā
He let out a soft, broken laugh, pressing a kiss to your temple. āOf course I did,ā he murmured. āYou carry half of my heart with you. I couldnāt breathe without it.ā
You let out a shaky chuckle, your fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt. āWow,ā you said, voice still hoarse. āYouāre so cheesy.ā
Steve grinned through the tears, brushing your hair back gently. āYeah, well, you almost died. Iām allowed to be dramatic.ā
āOh my god!ā
Dustinās voice cracked through the hum of the camp, and before you could even turn your head, he was already thereāracing across the clearing like a blur of curls and panic.
āI thought he was crazy,ā he gasped, dropping to his knees beside you. āBut youāre alive. Youāre actually alive.ā
You barely had time to react before his arms were around your neck, squeezing tight. He smelled like dirt and sweat and the faintest trace of marshmallow cereal. You let out a soft, choked laugh as you hugged him back, your arms trembling from the effort.
āDustin,ā you whispered, burying your face in his shoulder. āYou grew.ā
āYou died!ā he shouted, pulling back just enough to look at you, his eyes wide and glassy. āYou died, and then Steve went full-on feral andāā
āOh I went feral?ā Steve scoffed, throwing a hand in the air. āHeās been fighting everyone who said you died because of an earthquake. He nearly tackled a guy at the gas station for saying your name was on the memorial wall.ā
Dustin didnāt even flinch. āHe said she was a symbol of loss, Steve. What was I supposed to do? Agree?ā
You choked on a laugh, still half-curled in Steveās lap, your voice hoarse but warm. āGod, I missed you guys.ā
āY/N!ā
Robinās voice cut through the chaos, and then she was there, practically launching herself at you. She wrapped her arms around you so tight you thought your ribs might crack, but you didnāt care. You clung to her like a lifeline.
āDoes this mean I have to apologize to Steve,ā she mumbled into your shoulder, āfor thinking he was crazy when he said he was dreaming about you?ā
You pulled back just enough to look at her, your brows raised, voice dry. āOf course not. Never apologize to a man. Ever. Thatās feminism, Robin.ā
She snorted, wiping at her eyes with the sleeve of her jacket. āGod, I missed you.ā
You smiled, still breathless, still aching, but the warmth in your chest was real. āI missed you too.ā
Steve scoffed, trying for sarcasm but failing to hide the relief in his voice. āOkay, yeah, cool, just gonna ignore the part where you told Robin never to apologize to a man. Even me.ā
You smirked. āEspecially you.ā
He rolled his eyes, but the corners of his mouth twitched. āAlright, feminist icon. You think you can walk? You havenāt used your limbs in whatāeighteen months?ā
āYeah, I think so,ā you said, bracing your hands against the ground and pushing yourself up.
You made it halfway.
Then your knees buckled, and you tumbled forward with all the grace of a newborn deer.
āWhoaāā Steve caught you before you hit the ground, his arms wrapping around you instinctively. āGuess not, huh?ā
You groaned, forehead pressed to his chest. āI was so confident.ā
He laughed, the sound low and warm in your ear. āYeah, well, confidence is sexy. So is not concussing yourself.ā
Before you could protest, he scooped you up in one smooth motion, cradling you against his chest like you weighed nothing. Bridal style. Classic Harrington.
āSeriously?ā you muttered, your arms looping around his neck as he carried you like some overdramatic prince in a soap opera. āThis is so dramatic.ā
Steve grinned, not even pretending to be ashamed. āNever letting you go ever again.ā
You chuckled, your fingers drifting up to the brim of the backwards hat on his head āI like this on you,ā you said, voice soft but teasing.
He raised an eyebrow, eyes flicking up to where it now sat slightly crooked on your head. āYeah? You planning on stealing it?ā
you grin āyou know me so wellā














