#@fredward44

[sorryforcaringlover]

I don't know what I want for my future now that I understand it won't include you...but I guess I'll figure it out eventually.

[sorryforcaringlover]

The saddest part of all of this is that to my very core I still believe that we are meant to be.

I wish that you felt the same.

[sorryforcaringlover]

You really don't want me anymore...and that's hard for me to accept because you're the only one I've ever wanted.

[sorryforcaringlover]

There is no point in talking to you.

You don't listen or reply to what I have to say, so why should I try? What would you care if you never heard from me again?

[sorryforcaringlover]

If you feel comfortable lying to me every day, I don't feel comfortable having a conversation with you.

[sorryforcaringlover]

Sometimes I wonder if you even still read the things I write to you...but that would mean you would have to miss me first, and I don't think you do.

[sorryforcaringlover]

It makes me so happy that I still get to hear your voice, even if it's just for a few minutes a day.

@fredward44

[sorryforcaringlover]

Sometimes the people we care about the most in the world are the ones who hurt us the most.

Something most people don't think about is how those people only have the ability to hurt you because you gave it to them.

You opened yourself to them.

Threw down your defenses for them.

Let them see every part of you, even the parts that are vastly imperfect.

And sometimes, those people will use that against you. And sometimes it only hurts because they've become such a big part of you that you can't tell a single story about the important moments of your life without them being in it.

They're such a big part of you that when they hurt you, you can't stand yourself because you don't know who you are without them.

But that's something that you have to relearn in time...and as much as you might hold out hope that they'll reconcile with you, holding your breath will only kill you.