I'm a talented movie maker, so please give me work!
Dear World, If you’re listening
I could probably do a lot of things well, but the only thing I really want is to be a filmmaker. I didn’t find this out when I was only 8 years old, sorry, I realized my dream when I was a junior in high school…so 17 years old, but that shouldn’t make any difference.
So many people are like, “I knew I wanted this since I was 6 years old”…and when I read that kind of quote from someone famous I get down on myself, thinking, “Gosh I’m always gonna be behind”
When I found myself in my junior year of high school I also found everyone around me asking, “what do you want to do with your life?” “Where you going to go to college?” I was just trying to get through high school. Those are really big questions!
You mean I have to do homework, all my extra curricular, and make a plan for the rest of my life? So when I was being asked by everyone what I wanted to do, I truly had no ideas. For a while when I was younger I wanted to be a professional dancer but as I got older I saw how much my dance teachers struggled to make money and I knew I didn’t love it enough to struggle for it.
I pride myself on being realistic at the same time as I dream big. I’ll never be someone who does things the easy way or will be ok with a mundane life.
So to try and answer people’s questions and try to think about a college to go to I asked myself, “What do I like to do that I can turn into a carrier?”
My answer to myself was…daydream….so filmmaker…it made sense to me.
A few years later I would realize that I’ve always been a great storyteller. When I tell anyone a story I have lots of details and can create a visual for them. Also, I hated to admit it but I “played” with Barbies until I was into my teen years…it was the story telling and creating characters and dialog I loved…I just eventually started doing it all in my head and didn’t need dolls anymore. So when I think back, I probably always wanted to be a filmmaker, I just didn’t consciously know it until junior year of high school.
I’m so creative and have so much to give but the film industry is probably the hardest industry to get into. Yes talent and hard work helps, but honestly luck plays a huge roll as well I feel. A lot depends on whom you know. I work my butt off everyday but until I find someone who appreciates me and can help launch me into a network of people already in the business I’m getting nowhere fast. Filmmaking takes money and a lot of people to help you. I’m 27 in November and itching for my chance for someone to have some faith in me, what I have to offer, and help me to get the resources I need to do what I long to do. I can say today that I now know that filmmaking is the only thing I truly would be happy doing. I don’t need to be famous or crazy rich; I just want to have shelter, food, and the ability to make movies.