there is something unmovable in the way kuzan's dark eyes evaluate the other, sizing him up as though trying to the detect an implicit threat that struggles to filter through the way he's bold and yet afraid, his voice slightly quivering. helmeppo looks brittle. like a snap of kuzan's fingers could break him. but he's also visibly trying to be strong, to be firm, for a friend and comrade he knows is risking worse dangers than ice alone. the former admiral circles him idly, the heat of hachinosu seemingly having been put out of the dusty ground and the torrid sun by the ice that blooms at their feet—and the ice that creeps up kuzan's arm, his neck, his cheek. he exhales a misty breath, a warning in its own right.
‘to die?’ the casual strike of his voice, uncaring and slow as oil, begins to fragment whatever illusion the other may have had about admiral aokiji still being an ally. ‘cause that's what happens when you're too weak to save anyone. garp of all people should have taught you that.’ cutting the safe distance between them, he places a condescending hand on helmeppo's shoulder, the cold immediately slithering from his fingertips like a promise. ‘go home, i'd feel bad about killing someone who can't even defend himself.’ / @a0kiji
helmeppo knows he does not have the same power level as his superiors, but he still fights anyway. and he would do anything to protect his friend. koby meant everything to him; he doesn't suspect the former admiral to understand. he grips onto his kukri blades tightly, watching as kuzan circles him. it's getting colder, the ice spreading, and helmeppo feels a chill run down his spine.
his father could have never handled things like this. garp is counting on him. koby is counting on him. even if he can't fight kuzan, maybe he can find a way to get past him. he grinds his teeth together, looking at aokiji, wondering what drove a man like that to leave. (though can he blame him, when he is in SWORD? when he sees what goes on around him. he may not be smart, but he's smart enough.) helmeppo pouts, eyes following kuzan behind his visor before the pirate stands behind him.
the words are cruel. helmeppo's gaze blurs for a moment as he stares out. that's what happens when you're too weak to save anyone. too weak to save anymore. the words spiral around his mind, a reminder that he is only a lieutenant commander. he isn't good enough to be a commander yet. what is he doing, running around with gods? he tenses, head arching back a little bit, when he feels the hand on his shoulder. uh oh, helmeppo is in danger. "i j--just want captain koby," he says, trying to find some strength to his voice, his adam's apple bobbing as he swallows nervously. "let me escape with him. please." he's a fool for begging. he knows it. perhaps he's always been his father's useless son.