the doctorification of yasmin khan, part 7
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the doctorification of yasmin khan, part 7
I was really really bad at my first job and now I’m kind of scared that it’ll set a precedent and I won’t ever be able to find any more work.
I did everything that was asked of me, yes, but I didn’t manage to make any friends there and I didn’t understand the amount of effort I should have been putting into it so I exhausted myself and ended up vomiting from exhaustion three times before I quit. And I quit at a really bad time. Right before the most stressful part of the year, leaving my coworkers in a bad spot.
I’m scared that I’ll never be able to find a job again because the market already sucks. And now there’s no way I can put my old manager down as a reference because she’ll just talk about how awful I was. What do I even do at this point
My parents: wow, your grades are good you must be very happy
Me:
My parents: you still gotta work a little harder for math tho
Me: -_-
job applications are so fucking dumb. you spend hours working on and agonising over answering selection criteria that someone clearly slapped together last minute because at least two or three of them are asking you the exact same goddamn thing and then they probably only spend like 2 minutes reading it before moving on and not hiring you so you did all that work for Nothing
Also, you know that feeling when all the fanfiction you have ever attempted to write since age 13 has been left untouched in a single folder with very vague file names and you have to practically close your eyes and peek very cautiously between fingers at every document you open in case it contains a diabolical cringe-bomb?
I bought a No.7 blush last week (it's kind of a big deal for me makeup-wise because I've never owned blush and I also got my first proper lipstick too), and I've only worn it twice but now I can't find it anywhere!!! I really wanted to use it for the Con on Saturday. >.< It should be in the house, but where? I've looked pretty much everywhere. O_o
Went to the doctor today, told em about my insomnia, they had me take a couple tests, turns out I have unusually high stress levels and severe anxiety. I AM SO FUCKING SHOCKED. Gave me some pills, shits called Cerenity. Spoiler alert: THEYRE FUCKING HUGE. Bitch, I just wanted to get some sleep not practice deep throating.
OH MY GOD HHHHHH
I JUST FREAKIN WRECKED MY PHONE I WAS SO CLOSE TO FINISHING TAKING OFF THE BROKEN GLASS I HAD THE VERY LAST PIECE AND THEN I WENT AND SCREWED UP AND CRACKED THE DIGITIZER AND SO NOW IT'S TRASHED
i came very, VERY close to being able to repair my phone for only $10, and now because of bad luck or my clumsiness or WHATEVER it was, i'll have to pay $200+ to either get a used one online or get insurance to get a new one
omg i'm so mad and i can't BELIEVE this happened the night before i'm supposed to be gone, being in a new place all by myself with no cell phone should be really, really fun and not a bad idea at all
gosh sorry i'm just sooooo mad at myself and i just. can't. believe. i did that. wow. i was so close... and i was doing so well in repairing it so far