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Not allowed to die

“You are an idiot you know that?” Torania took the poultice and gently pressed it against the side of Alistair’s exposed chest. “basic rule of combat be aware of your suroundings. In other words do not draw the ogre to fight near the cliff edge. They have a liking for lifting up people fighting them, beating them up a bit, and then throwing them. It was pure luck you landed on that ledge just a little ways down, Her hands shook slightly as she lifted up the next poultice and stuck this one on his shouldior. “I never want to see that again” She was refering to the sight of Alistair being flung of a cliff. The dead ogre lay nearby. It was brutly savaged. The results of Torania’s rage thinking it had killed Alistair. “You are not allowed to die you hear me? That is an order!” The redhead did not often speak to those around her in terms of orders. But this incident had the grey warden shaken.

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Headcannon: Torania Needs Alistair

For a girl who wants desperately to be strong Torania knows she has a problum. The problum is she is not strong enough to exist without her husband. When he found her she was a broken thing. Struggling to hide that fact from the world. He saw though her. but to her amazment he made her laugh again. He started to pull her out of the hole she was in. She started to see the joy. The light in the world again. Through him. Then he lost everything. Those he consitered his family just like she did. But he was so strong! he did not shatter. He mourned yes but he did not shatter. He was so strong! He kept being light. A light. Her light. He was the strongest man in the world. And she latched onto that strength. He was strong enough to provide the inner strength she lacked. She might be stubborn. She might be the strongest warrior in Ferelden, but he healed her and he became her inner strength. 

Torania does not love Alistair best due to the romantic things he sometimes says. She enjoys kissing him and cuddling him and all that, but when he is away that's not the part of him she really misses the most. Torania loves the behavior of Alistair that is just pure Alistair. The slight akwardness, The essential goodness, That unique kind of humor. That is what brings the light and joy to her life. That is why she adores him and that is what she can't live without. Anyone can hugs and kiss and talk romance. No one but Alistair can just be Alistair. And it is just plain being Alistair That just makes her soul light up inside

The hardest part of being the royal couple for Torania is enduring separation, Afterall how long can one last when you rip out their heart? But royal duty requires the couple to be apart sometimes for long amounts of time. Torania can last a few days just fine. Then she starts to show the typical symptoms of depression. Sometimes she will speed up instead desperately flinging herself from one thing to another in attempts to not pay attention to the pain. But that can only last so long.

Torania is not a needy woman. She is cocky, confident, assertive, badass, That is who she naturally is. But she also tries to extend it into being a mask to hide the parts of herself she considers weak.

People have layers. Weaknesses... There are many ways to be strong. and many ways to be weak. Torania has some of both because I try to make her as real and dynamic as the characters bioware gives us. 

[brother-sebastian-vael]

thebrokentemplar hat deine Frage beantwortet:thebrokentemplar hat auf...

W-why -w-would I want that? *breathes heavily*

I just mused over the few mun's that have told me about their mutiple muses, on my way home and started wondering if there were any more of them and whether I was expected to be aware of that. Don't wanna be the only one, who doesn't see the elephant in the room. ^^"

abastardonthethrone hat auf deinen Eintrag geantwortet:by the by

Hence why I told you who I was.

Yes! Thank you for that! =)

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Torania And Sex

So I could not fall asleep for a long while at night at the LARP in the cabins. So naturally I ended up thinking about my muses sex life. Wow... Info below the cut

Torania is quite accommodating when Alistair wants to go at it usually. She is surprised by her own healthy sex drive with him. She likes how she can maker her husband flush and moan. Things like anal and blow jobs are enjoyable for both of them. But her favorite thing to go of this type is to kiss his thing and watch him react to it

In terms of actual sex Torania enjoys being both dominate and submissive. Often switching back and forth between the two in an almost flirtatious manner, following her body's urges and her husband's movements.

Thing like dominatrix and bondage are "Just NO" to her. She would not be able to do it. Alistair is to her a miracle. Something to be cherished and adored. Abuse, even pretend abuse, would just send a "No" reaction in her mind that would make her freeze, perhaps start to shake, and be unable to continue, if she ever did try it. That is despite everything inside her screaming at her not to do so in the first place.

She likes when Alistair sucks or gently nips her nipples. Not in a creepy babyish way but like wrapping his mouth around them while kissing in that area and pulling back.

Torania has the flexibility of a contortionist. There is no position that is impossible on her end. In addition her amount of stamina is remarkable even for a grey warden. Just two little perks

Torania thinks hickeys are just plain stupid.

Also sex is pretty much the only time Torania will let her hair down from it's trademark three ponytails. I Imagine this has taken on an almost erotic connotation from Alistair who has a thing for red hair and might like playing with it.

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I don't know what to do

My muse is making me miserable. This is not healthy. I never should have started to roleplay with Alistairs in the first place. There is something wrong with me that I end up crying over such trivial things. That Anon was right. I am mean. Its not fair of me to force my pairing on people yet I can't seem to stop myself! 

I probably won't be able to stick with this even. I'll probably come back because I'm pathetic like that.

So this is me (trying) to go on Hiatus. I think I tagged most of those I rp with. Sorry If I missed anyone

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The work never ends for a Grey Warden, and especially not for a Warden-Commander. It had been many months since the incidents in Amaranthine had subsided, with her involvement, and Vigil's Keep was well on its way to being restored. New recruits came steadily, and thus, Ferelden's Wardens were gaining their strength.

And now Warden-Commander Neria Surana was set to return to court, at least for a few weeks. Of course, she believed it to be a welcome rest; rather than all duties being placed on her shoulders, she would have only a small part of it. Chancellor to the King or no, she was an elf, and worst of all, a mage, and thus what part she played in advising or deciding was strictly limited.

Her arrival in Denerim was a quiet one, and this was due to the fact that she had traveled alone, and entered the city in a stranger's guise, cloak about her shoulders. It was a welcome peace, and a quiet journey (the land was still within that period of calm that often followed a Blight). The streets were bright with the afternoon sun, and the palace lay not far up ahead, and the mage felt at ease. Denerim had been her home for the course of six months before she had departed for Amaranthine, and returning brought her comfort. Finally, the palace doors stood before her, and she entered, finding it cooler than the air had been outside. Letting down her hood, she sighed contentedly.

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abastardonthethrone replied to your post: “I am Sovreign," OH I GET IT NOW”:

Wait... I don't get it. What did you get?

I understand where her name comes from now.