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New Order Run 2 vinyl sleeve design by Julian Morey of abc—xyz design studio 1989 (x)

[waltzing-gonzalo]

ABC - XYZ [Masterpiece]

Fandom: Helix Waltz Characters: Xavier, Magda Ellenstein, OC [Beau Crawford] Pairing: Xavier x OC Genre: Slight Angst Words: 832

“The more I intently admire art, the more I get bored of it; casually browsing does not make any room for disappointment.”

Xavier found himself staring… as most times that he’s been with Beau Crawford’s presence. For someone who’s been bred and born in Rayorca, she is much more elegant than some of the women he’s met in Finsel.

Her shimmering blonde locks flow with the wind so freely, like lightweight strands of gold that curved and waved against the beauty of her visage.

Her emerald eyes always spark with curiosity and wonder whenever they talk, they dance, they interact. Never did she look distracted or bored whenever they had conversations during balls.

Her lips, always tinted with a rosy pink colour, kept polite smiles towards others yet… when she grins at him, it was always enchanting - ensnaring. Words uttered by such delicate features kept him on his toes, captivated by each movement of her mouth as she speaks.

Her defined jaw…

Her slender neck…

Her prominent collar bone…

Her br--

“That’s not a very gentlemanly thought, kid.” Black Shadow interrupted his thoughts, mind brought back to the reality of their distance. Beau was entertaining several gentlemen who have been invited to her father’s Autumnal Ball… and he was there, alone sitting at a loveseat like a pregnant duck.

She had been deliberately avoiding him.

For agonizingly two hours already.

“Hush.” He ordered the deity, taking a sip of his champagne. His eyes never left Beau’s slender figure, the mystery around her identity never seem to make sense yet it drew him in like a spiral vortex. “Let a man wallow in his own thoughts for a moment without your distasteful comments.”

“She’s right there, you know.”

“I am aware.” He took another sip.

“Just scoop her up and drag her to the dance floor if you’re so damn horny for her--”

“Shut up.” Xavier glared at Black Shadow with a spell, zipping the demon king’s lips (if it can even be called ‘lips’) before he gives away Beau’s name among the eavesdropping masses within the ball. 

He turned to the ladies passing by, solemnly nodding his head in apology, “My apologies for his uncouth mouth, my ladies. The lack of physical vessel to possess, for more than a hundred years, may have rotten his brain filthy.”

Black Shadow bumped his ‘head’ against Xavier’s in a poor attempt of vengeance, only to be pushed away lightly.

“I am fine looking at her from a distance; keeping one step back allows me to stop myself from being disappointed.” His eyes traced back to her previous position, the lack of Beau seemed to have rendered the ballroom into a lackluster black and white. Where did she go?

“Master Xavier, it is a pleasure to meet you here.” A pair of blue irises watched him with her usual doe eyes, subtle hints of curiosity marred her picture of feigned ignorance. Magda Ellenstein was never good with concealing her intentions behind those sky blue eyes of hers. 

She has a motive. 

“Are you waiting for someone?”

Ah. Bingo.

A scandal between him and Beau would most likely be a big gossip among the nobles the moment he confesses his attraction to the Rayorcan woman. Magda is one of the many who are trying, prying, him and Beau of the nature of their ‘relationship’.

“Not particularly, Miss Ellenstein.” He answered smoothly, taking another sip from his champagne. “I am merely sitting down for a drink.”

“So…” Magda hesitated, eyes suddenly unable to meet his gaze. Is there something wrong? “Uhm… Are you not busy, Master Xavier?”

“Is there a problem…?”

“I saw Miss Beau exit to the fourth balcony after an uncomfortable advance from a nobleman.” She explained meekly, yet the simple words made his blood boil. Is that why Beau was out of sight?

Is she scared? 

Is she crying? 

Did the scoundrel touch her on inappropriate places?

“And what does that have to do with me?” Xavier asked her indifferently, his voice controlled to avoid his emotions run free. He wanted to rush off to see her state… but Magda, of all people, cannot be hinted (even at the slightest) at what he feels for the Crawford heiress. It will be chaos at the Spire if she starts talking about… this unlabeled ‘something.’

“I cannot ask Viscount Sakan… for obvious reasons. Mister Gonzalo is busy talking with Captain Alan; I refuse to disrupt them.” Magda explained to him in a whisper, “You are the best person to comfort her now, Master Xavier. Please check up on her.”

Magda has given him an excuse. An excuse to ask Beau why she’s been avoiding him.

“Then, who am I to decline a lovely lady’s plea of help for the sake of a friend.” Xavier smiled at her as he stood up, placing his champagne flute at a passing servant’s tray.

“Thank you, Master Xavier.”

No. 

Thank you for the excuse, Miss Ellenstein.

The red-haired mage strode to the fourth balcony, seeing Beau lost in thought as she stared up at the moon. What a beautiful masterpiece.

“Miss Beau…”

[tswatch]

heya there, i'm friends with this guy online who is going through a lot right now and he's been diagnosed with psychosis, mania, depression and anxiety, and sometimes he gets into a really bad place, though he's a very sweet person. i care about him a lot, but when he gets like this, i never really know what to say, and i always feel so helpless. is there anything i can say other then 'you'll be okay'? anyway, this blog has been a huge help already :) thanks! (pseudonym: abc-xyz)

Hey there love,

You’re doing a really great thing in helping your friend, you should be so proud of yourself! A lot of people in your shoes would have given up by now so well done for sticking by your friend!

You say you feel helpless a lot with him so I just wanted to say before we got into any advice that you must must must remember to take care of yourself first and foremost, okay? It’s no good trying to help other people if you are struggling yourself. It’s a lot to deal with and if you need to take some time for yourself, you just say. He’ll understand. 

First of all, I would urge him to seek treatment. The fact that he is still having these episodes means that the treatment he is on now (if he is on anything) is not working as it should and that it needs to be changed. That will make the biggest difference. Another thing you could do is ask him what helps when he is experiencing each episode. For example, when I get anxious I like someone to remind me to breath and reassure me, but not to get too close in case I get claustrophobic. Remember, your friend has had to deal with these feelings for a long time; chances are he’ll have his own coping mechanisms that he can share with you.

Do a lot of research. Although you’ve experienced him experiencing it, it could help to get more information on it. I googled my illnesses to death, even though I was experiencing them, just to get more knowledge. Remember, knowledge is power! Ask him questions about his experiences. The more you know, the more you’ll be able to help him. 

When they’re suffering with psychosis, you could try to remind them that what they’re experiencing is not real, that it will pass, they just need to ride it out. Try to be patient with them and if they become angry or agitated, back away slightly and talk gently, reminding them that you are there to help. If they continue, it might be worth trying to contact someone who can be there physically if needed. Try to distract them and give them something to focus on. They say that can help as it helps the brain to figure out what’s real and what isn’t. Encourage them to record what they are experiencing in case they need to discuss it with their mental health worker if they have one or their GP.

Mania can be difficult to deal with as those that are manic can often be very irritable (I know I am!). They may become agitated if you don’t allow them to do the possibly dangerous things that they want to. For example, if they want to go out and spend a lot of money and if you tell them they shouldn’t, they may react in the same way that a small child would. They can’t control it, that’s what’s important to remember. Try to gently talk them out of it. For example, in the shopping scenario, you might say, why don’t you wait until tomorrow, so you can have a full day of it? It’s getting late now. Or you could encourage him to take someone with him to help him control his spending. When he’s calm, make a plan of what to do in these situations. It may be that he’s had some experience and knows how he can be helped when he’s manic or psychotic.

When your friend is suffering with their depression or anxiety, try not to get fed up with them, or at least, if you do (most people do from time to time, it makes you human), don’t let them see it. It can be incredibly frustrating when you’re trying to help and being positive but it feels like it’s being thrown back in your face. Let it go over your head. Remember, they don’t choose to feel like this and they certainly don’t want to! Ask them when and how it started. Did the depression become worse because of an event or was there another reason for it? Maybe there was no reason, but if there’s an exacerbating factor, it might help them solve it and ease the depression sooner. It’s worth a try. It might be that they are stressed for some reason and that’s why they’re suffering from a relapse in their condition. Make them laugh. Laughing boosts their serotonin, so try to make them laugh as often as you can. Send them funny pictures, show them hilarious posts from social media, anything to boost their spirits. They say laughing for twenty minutes a day reduces stress and anxiety and boosts your mood! Remind them how strong they are. Depression is so hard to deal with and often feels like you’re carrying round a ten ton of weight on your back. Remind them that you think they are so strong and how proud you are of them for coping as well as they do. What are they good at? Remind them how good they are at those things. 

As for their anxiety, gently remind them that you are there, you will be there as long as they need you to be and that the symptoms will ease. Tell them to take deep breaths, try square breathing: in for four, hold for four, out for four. That always helps me. Tell them to touch something close to them. Hold it in their hand. What does it feel like against their skin? What does it look like? Get them to tell you all about it, even if it feels silly. It will help them focus on something so their brain hopefully calms itself down because your forcing it to pay attention to something other than what is making them anxious.

I’m sorry this post was so long but hopefully there’s something in there that will help you and your friend! 

Take care love and let me know how it goes!

Marnie<3

[rynnae-archived]

abc--xyz replied to your post: vigilantism replied to your post: i wonder what...

WHAT!!!!!!!

BANISH THOSE IMPURE THOUGHTS FROM UR MIND AT ONCE, YOUNG LADY!! 5 foot long dildos do not belong there!

[syarapi]

Ramblings about NEWS and ABC-xyZ

So... rumours say is my husband (Yamapi, to set things clear) who has all the fault about NEWS disappearing. Arama exactly says:

Rumor has it that the reason why they haven’t been doing anything as a group is because if Yamapi doesn’t feel like doing anything, then the group doesn’t do anything.

So, Midareteku said: Yamapi's NEWS' Jin.

Maybe, well, we all know he's not, 'cause I really believe in him, and he said last year:

I will cherish NEWS forever.

But, just in case he's going, he will go... so Ryo's gonna quit to. And then will have just KoyaShige and TegoMass. Fuck it, that's not NEWS, sorry fans, but NEWS are 6 people, not 4.

And now is when the serious post ends.

So, being 4, can mean that NEWS will dissapear, and... are KoyaShige going to debut? 

Midareteku has got the answer: So... here you have the ABC-xyZ' xy :D