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(Yeah, I know, taking a break from my hiatus to post this. I'll do the same with the other late b-day presents, so expect that too. xD;)

[IF YOU CLICK THIS, PLEASE LISTEN TO THIS WITH YOUR VOLUME TURNED DOWN. THERE ARE SOME NOTES THAT MIGHT MAKE YOU CRINGE.  ALSO, DON'T WATCH THE VIDEO, IT'S LITERALLY JUST PART OF MY FACE SINGING.]

With that said...HAPPY BIRTHDAY, FIRESTAR810! My dearest wifey, I've been wanting to write you a song for awhile now, so here it is. I know it doesn't sound that great (like how there's no specific rhythm or tune and how I bleat like a goat sometimes and I fall flat a lot and can't sing the word best properly and doN'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE HIGH NOTES I CAN'T REACH OH MY GOD), but every word of it rings true.

You are the light of my life and the greatest best friend a woman could have. I love you so much, even if I don't usually say it. Always keep being yourself...and please don't use this as blackmail against me. I know you have that wall of cheesy cards from me and I don't need a cheesy song added on to it. >__>;

Now, everyone go give this babe some love today! 8D Lyrics are below.

I’ve never been more convinced of anything in my life I hope you know, though its cliché, I’ll stay by your side You may not believe, but listen close, for I need to confess Out of every friend I’ve had or will have, you are the best

And I mean it, I only speak the truth I’m not trying to scare you away, But I need to prove to you

How happy you make me, how much I smile every day Being with you, talking to you, my problems melt away And if they come back, or if I’m thinking about yours We’ll close up those wounds over time, heal those cuts and sores

I’ve never been more sure of anyone in my life at all You know I fake annoyance, although I wait for every call I don't think you realize, but darling, I can attest You’re beautiful inside and out, and you're the best

And I mean it, I’m not lying I hope I don't freak you out, But you got to know I’m trying

To show you how great you are, how much you mean to me You’re underestimated, underappreciated, and I wish they'd see How brilliant you are, how you can fill anyone with good cheer And I don't care what they think, I just care that you're here

Allow me to be more specific, I think you should know That notes don't validate existence, you deserve them though You have talent and craft, wrapped up with guts and so much ambition You follow your dreams and try your hardest, you don't sit there wishing

And maybe you disagree; maybe you shake your head Yeah, I know you have flaws, but focus on instead What makes you so wonderful to be with every day And why you are my best friend in every way

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I know I don't say it often; I’m just not made like that But darling, you are the hottest and the coolest cat I love you more than this little song can say So just remember that you are the best in every way~

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Lyrics under the cut, as usual.

SEVETEEN DOESN'T MEAN

Turning seventeen today, everything’s the same Still searching for answers to the questions in my brain Digging holes to fall in so I can learn how to climb out Because getting dirty is apparently what it’s all about

Seventeen punches from a friend that might hide a second face I’d like to exert my new recklessness without being a disgrace Seventeen candles on the cake that was never given to me Because blowing out the candles won’t wish away the cruel reality

Stepping up a year today, afraid to look down Craving independence, but I can’t stand my own ground They say the sky’s limit, but we both know that’s not true The only limits are the paychecks that I’ll have to earn soon

Seventeen dollars hidden in a card gifted by a loving stranger I don’t want to throw my life on the line, but I need a taste of danger Seventeen minutes ticking by as I continue to procrastinate Old habits die hard and killing them at this point might be too late

I’ll try on skirts, but I won’t walk in high heels Would it be shallow if I let fashion dictate how I feel? I can’t fit in because I like being an eyesore Yet there are these insecurities demanding that I need to be more

Free spirit she calls me, but I feel trapped I have the means of escape, but I can’t read the map My comfort zone is just a lie Because they want me to love and I’m terrified to die

Seventeen years have been subtracted from the timeline Days I spent capturing identities and I tried to make them mine Seventeen hours I will spend staring at the computer screen Still trying to block out the past, the future, and everything in between

Seventeen indents on my lips where I’ve bitten through Still have all of my wisdom teeth, but no idea of what to do Seventeen candles on the cake that I still can’t light Because being seventeen doesn’t mean that you're different inside

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Safe, but Not Sound

You hear the stars whispering your name Travelling galaxies to find out what they say Unwritten prophecies in the glint of their eyes Heartfelt intentions ruined by bitter lies Did the ghosts of past kings speak to you? Are the shadows every right about what to do? My kisses of thunder should erase every doubt As I hold you in my arms, you're safe and sound Eyes flash like lightning and you steal the ground The betrayal stings--you're safe, but sound Your hands tremble and you clench them tight Try to muffle the sounds that slip out in the night Moonlight is your lover and the sun is your fate For you will blaze and burn at this rate Did the fates pass judgment on you? Are you afraid and unsure of what to do?

My raging thunder will not stay in the clouds Even as you suffocate, you're safe and sound Lips soothe like raindrops and soon you will drown The poison burns me--you're safe, but not sound My rumbling laughter was never pointed at you I meant no harm, but you never believed it was true Hands strike like flashes and you start to break down Just one troubling thought-- You're safe, but you were never sound. My kisses of thunder should erase every doubt Even as you suffocate, you're safe and sound Eyes flash like lightning and you steal the ground Hands strike like flashes and you start to break down I meant no harm, but you never believed it was true I only ever acted out of my love for you-- You're safe, but not sound. You were saved, but you were never found.

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Shot Down

Song lyrics under the cut.

Bang, bang; my baby shot me down Cradled my head when I hit the ground Bang, bang; drove a bullet through my heart Tried so hard to tear this fragile life apart I walked into the room, saw you trying to act tough Kissed your cheek and made you breakfast, but it wasn't enough Your cardboard cut-out friends are your only company today Because I heard you talking, heard you wanted me to go away

Bang, bang; my baby made the shot Believed dutifully in everything we're not Bang, bang; my skull just cracked in two Separating the pieces that once held the memories of me and you I held you when you were shaking, frightened by superficial fears Tried not to roll my eyes, now they're filling up with fallen tears Your walls and blanket forts can only keep you so warm tonight Because I saw you yesterday, saw you making love to the light Bang, bang; my baby found another body Dead inside, now my wounds are raw and thoughts are soggy Bang, bang; the bullet cutting through my skin Locking all the doors that were opened when I let you in

Why did you pick up the gun from its dusty shelf? You told me that you would never hurt me yourself Don't bother calling the paramedics, I am far from saved All the days that we were smiling, all the storms that we braved Bang, bang; my baby shot me down Walked away from my corpse lying on the ground Bang, bang; drove a bullet through my heart Now our existence together has been torn apart Bang, bang; can't hear you over the gun shot Don't lie to me and tell me you're everything I got Bang, bang; one hit was all it took to make me break It's clear now that to you I was just a mistake

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Don't Pretend We're Robots

Song lyrics under the cut.

We don't need your petty love We don't want your stupid hate We just want a place to sleep We don't need to hope or dream The alleys are a sign of God As well as death, disease, and fraud Guns everywhere and bullets flying Just ignore the masses dying Let's pretend that we're robots Show them something that we're not Metal can't bleed out or cry If there's no soul, it cannot die Let's imagine we're all fake A product of the things we make Factories can now give birth Possessions now define your worth They don't need to earn your trust They don't want your selfish comfort They just want more pairs of hands They just need more chunks of land Starvation is another test Just like fighting to be the best Competition is a part of humanity Just another step to insanity! Let's pretend that they're robots Take their money lots and lots Machines don't know how to feel Cannot comprehend what's real Let's imagine they're all fake Corrupted by the lives they take It's so easy to call them bad Maybe they're just tired and sad We don't need to be oppressed We don't need to be the best We don't want this fantasy-- soon we'll see reality! Soon we'll all rise up as one Soon the fight will have begun Soon the people will all scream:

"We are humans, not machines!"

Let's pretend that we're robots Let's imagine we're all fake Believe something that we're not Become a slave to what we make Let's realize that we're all flesh Doesn't matter whose right or left We might achieve peace someday If we dispel the illusion today!