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dude you can just say you wanted to be cute, nobody's gonna judge

threw this up on bsky already but how silly would it be if I didn't post it here too~

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he’s way too fucking cool for this!!

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i am going to be annoying and cross-post shit from my twitter account

i was going to say “who knows how canon this is to this blog” but like in the context of this franchise, what even is canon anymore

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happy anniversary :)

small ramblings about my relation to this character and stuff under the cut for anyone who cares.

I always had this lingering feeling of guilt and shame over my own self-insert, and the way I handled John in general through the life of this blog. Granted, a lot of his characterization came much later into the series, long after I’d established stuff based on what I’d read of the first... idk, 4 acts? Also, I was 19 and lacked literary comprehension apparently LMFAO.

I digress. I was young, and experimenting a lot with ABDL stuff as someone who was pretty new to it myself, and John ended up becoming a vehicle for a lot of that. Things snowballed, and I ended up with a lot of noncon-adjacent elements that made even me uncomfortable. Combined with a self-insert that I purposely portrayed as aggressive and a bit unhinged to put up a wall of sorts and ensure that nobody fucked with me, it was just... all over the place.

My focus issues are pretty bad, but one day I’d like to sit down and explore John and his relation to this kink in a way that is more true to how I interpret his character after some growing up, from both of us.

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Dirk: What is your worst fear?

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we interrupt your regularly scheduled Plot Retcon™ for some long overdue art

he’s about as much of a morning person as me