#abm;past

[nereus-seirina]

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€ for a bad memory that still haunts them

How to put this, how to put this.. what even are words...

I don't grow feelings for people easily, and I don't say anything about it unless I feel it's necessary. Last year there was a guy I fell for, he was everything to me. There wasn't a single thing about him I didn't like, he was funny, handsome, sweet.. simply perfection. He made my heart race whenever I felt his hand on my shoulder, and made me laugh and smile so much it felt like my cheeks were bruised. I felt at peace with everything, nothing could wipe the smile from my face when his name was mentioned. He was the greatest thing to ever happen in my life to this day. In the end, he really messed me over. I'm not going into detail about the bad things, but it's safe to say that I did everything I could to keep him around.

He ended up leaving, and I miss him badly.. since then I can't look at someone romantically without comparing them to him, and I hate myself for it. I think that I'm slowly getting over him though, but there isn't a day that goes by where he hasn't been in my mind.. he's haunting me, I suppose. I know that I was supposed to write about a bad memory, and I wouldn't call him a bad memory. When things fell apart, from then onwards were bad memories.

[nereus-seirina]

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⌆ for a story about their family/home life

I come from a big family, I have eight siblings and a twin brother included. My mother has been remarried several times, and with so many people in our family we never had much money. Our Aunt was somewhat wealthy, and would help us if we really needed it, but that stopped once they got into a big fight.. I still don't know what it was about, but they haven't sorted it out. I would have to share a room with Shiori, my twin brother, as well as my three younger brothers as well. It was fun for the most of it, unless I wanted some alone time or quiet. There was always someone arguing, be it my current step father and sister, or me and my mother, so I would always go to White Beach to get away from it all. It was a really beautiful place, it had a few rock pools and nice waves.. it's where Kairius, one of my older brothers, would go surfing. My biological father used to own a hotel nearby, and each year on his birthday I would make sure the new owners are taking care of it and stuff.

But I never really liked my family life, it was far too hectic and it got tiresome.. which is why I began travelling when I turned twenty, but then I arrived in Japan and couldn't leave. I really do love it here! My parents still think I'm travelling, they would fly over and kill me if I said I'm living here now..

[nereus-seirina]

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〆 for a childhood story 

I have like, three of these ones.. I have a bit of writer’s block so I’ll get around to them later, probably. (๑•́ ω •̀๑)

My parents managed to earn a lot of money one month when I was twelve, so we planned a trip to the mainland! We all got to choose one thing to do, and I wanted to go to the Allou! Fun Park.. it was really amazing, since I’ve never been to anything like it. A huge place for a little girl! I went with my brother to the House of Fear, and.. well, it was traumatic.

We paid for our tickets and walked inside, Shiori obviously putting on a ‘tough guy’ act, even if he was as nervous as I was. We’re both really bad with horror.. It was just kinda eerie stuff at first, spider webs everywhere, the place looking abandoned, etc., and there was people who legitimately looked dead randomly appearing, screaming at us, just that kinda lame stuff. It was enough to make me start crying, I’m not good with sudden screaming.. then a guy came at us with a chainsaw. A real one. I ended up being the one screaming, and I just froze so my brother had to pick me up and run out of there.

On the news a few days later, we found out that the same guy with the chainsaw had actually hurt someone with it and he ended up going to jail.. my dad never told me much about it though, so I’m guessing it must have been pretty bad.