#about everything!!!!

[crimson-constellations]

Ok so no one could have prepared me for that last jayvik scene.

I predicted a big bunch of what would happen to them in act three, like a bit of what happened to Jayce in the arcane, Viktor’s (2) resurrection, their fight in the council room n shit too. But mostly the scene into Viktor’s hive mind (??) just Jayce last hope as he tries to find what’s left of Viktor in there. What I’m trying to say is: I thought I was prepared, key word Thought bc I did NOT expect him to actually succeed.

I was expecting him to maybe shear a tear or two then go back on his mission to kill him, maybe just anger, some yelling or whatever. I had no fucking faith in him actually getting Viktor back and that ended me right there.

It was beautiful and I loved every minute of it, I don’t have the artistic skill to draw any of it but who cares!!?! Anyway I’m going crazy they’re so fucking soft even when they’re being absorbed by void, I don’t give a shit they didn’t kiss on screen (which btw was never happening like ever) that was gayer than anything else that could’ve happened let’s be honest.

I think that last conversation was everything that Jayce wanted to say when he asked trapped in that cave or wtv prob thinking about the way things could’ve gone differently. He spent all that time reflecting and in the end he got a chance to get it out for te one person that needed to hear it. Telling Vitor that he want broken, what he though were his weaknesses where just, life. There could be other ways, to cure his illness, live better even with his leg, but in this end there was no time left for them so I think it was the best way to end everything.

I’m not gonna talk abt their arcs an how undeniably intertwined they are to each other but just know it’s true, and that’s why beyond a the crying I actually liked their ending. They’ve been so inherently tied together since the very beginning there’s o other way to go.

(Yall have no idea how much I cried fr)

[questionable-bones-n-slime]

Can we just have a moment to fully sympathize with Snape when he goes completely off his handle over Sirius Black escaping?

Man has been dealing with ptsd triggers and invalidation of his abuse and bullying as a child all year. Is staying up most nights either roaming the grounds to watch out for the kids or hunt down Sirius or catch what lupin is up to because he knows it's something. He's acting as a spy full time that year too.

And let me underline how horrible his mental health must have been that year. Because fucking NO one is ever in his corner about how he was treated as a child. He is constantly being mocked or belittled over his trauma and others disbelief over what he knows happened is undermining him doing his job as a spy and protector of harry potter and his students.

He's finally about to have his points proven right and then it all goes to shit. His instincts he's been training and using as a spy for over a decade and a half at that point are being blatantly ignored and children we're endangered.

Not even dumbledore is on his side in the scene where he's yelling and screaming about things that actually happened and he's basically told he was imagining it.

Because here's the thing. He was right. Every single thing he was suspicious about was worried about. They were all on point. And then dumbledore not only doesn't keep him in the loop but finds it funny when he has a mental breakdown over it. A man who prides himself on his control and public strength and unflappability loses his top hat in front of his master, the minister and the children he is assigned to protect. Think about how genuinely embarrassed and upset he would be afterwards as well when he learns that dumbledore let him believe he was wrong in front of everyone and he was right and dumbledore still ignored him. Probably didn't talk to the man for a full week. Imagine the betrayal. Like God man how can you do that to someone.

[saint-cloud]

so fucked up when u use things u learned in class in ur day 2 day life

[judithbutlersdealer]

why am I CONSTANTLY in my feelings

[couturecannibal]

tonight's mood: sitting on the bed eating plain yogurt straight from the 1 lb container thinking about how much i want to drop out of college and become a carpenter or some shit

[sesquipadelian]

i hold so much anger in me!!! i dont know what to do with it!!!!! i dont know what to do!!!!!

[lacrimacorona]

i feel like everyone thinks i’m screaming at them all the time because i put such an UNNECESSARY number about of exclamation points after EVERYTHING i write to people

and like they aren’t wrong??? because i’m just really excited about everything all the time and i need!!! some way!!! to portray it!!!! through text!!!!!!!