why is the love and romance experience of lgbt people so strange. i struggle to find any articles about the lgbt love experience. one of my best friends said something yesterday that made me think. i too want an s/o. i want to cook for someone, i want to hold hands. i wanna smooch. i want to grow and change with someone. i love my friends.
i occasionally fantasize intimate, romantic relationships with my best friends. the feelings and fantasies come & go. is the lgbt experience having best friends (or friends) who you sometimes fantasize about snuggling up with and kissing? why is pinpointing the difference between “romantic love” or “platonic love” so difficult, for me personally?
i love my best friends platonically. but i’ve definitely fantasized about being in intimate relationships with my best friends. i have like 3 best friends. is that something that just happens as an lgbt person experience? do i have feelings for all 3 of my best friends?? hello BRAIN? being a masc enby, i want to date people who i can trust. i can’t fucking trust a cis stranger i meet on tinder to fuck me because they love me or respect me because i feel they would just “haha [redacted] time” and just see me as masc lite or something. especially cis men.
i’ll have dreams even. like the dream where me n one of my best friends shared joints and lit mine off hers. like...indie movie, anime whatever. or like i dream of smooching my other best friends.
maybe i am just poly and i need all my best friends to be in a relationship with me right the fuck now so i can call it a fucking day!!! XD smh...the lgbt love experience.
the lgbt experience defies what we have been taught conventionally about the heteronormative relationships. but then, where is the platonic love, where is the romantic love? what defines the line between the two? hmmghhmmm
