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Whelp, it was a successful Birthday.

google knows its my birthday today, stop stalking me google.

I’m curious, what is everyone’s favorite pokeball?

#mine is definitely the fast ball #or the premier ball #we were discussing this at work #aboutspead

my Sans cosplay is really coming together and I am uber excited for the con I’m going to next month whoo!

#sometimes you gotta write the exciting stuff down #aboutspead #goin' to Vegas with my ketchup bottle and my puns in tow!#Undertale

we get posters sometimes with the comics to promote said comics but there is no room in the store for them to go up so I GET TO TAKE THEM HOME AAAA--

#i got some spiffy doctor strange non-mcu related ones #and one for amazing spiderman #and daredevil #aaa- yesss #aboutspead

I identify to a strong degree, with trans-masculinity, and I have always been afraid to show it. I grew up in a certain lifestyle where you had to be a certain thing to get love. You had to appease a certain person, or else you were to feel neglected or despised. My siblings and I were never allowed too far from the ideal image of a person who was downright awful. You have to wear a dress, you have to keep your face clear of make-up, you have to stay away from jewelry, you have to keep your hair long and put up, never ever ever stray from that path or else you will get no love. This confinement of our personal selves was awful, and I was the worst of it. I was the one who always tried to do these things in order to get the love I felt back then- I had none of. I sought her approval like it was a drug and I was an addict, I wanted it so badly, I wanted her to love me so badly. When I got my hair cut yesterday, every strand that fell was a piece of that confinement washing away. Up until this point, I had still never done anything drastic enough to become my ideal image, because it was ingrained in my mind that I was not allowed. I still believed through conditioning and low self-esteem, that I had to abide by what she wanted of me at least to some degree. I have never felt so free, and so weightless in my life when it pertained to this. I was just sitting here and started to think about it and the tears automatically started to fall. I finally get to be myself, because of the unending love and encouragement that my friends, and my now close family, have given me. The endless support that they have shared has guided me into understanding that being me isn't a sin. It isn't a terrible thing to be, it isn't disgusting, or evil, or beneath me... .. being me, is so freeing and so wonderful and oh my god if you have the chance to transform yourself into who you truly want to be, for the love of who you are, do it. Every time I look in a mirror I feel refreshed and just- free. I am free, and it feels, so, amazing, and no one should ever be allowed to take that away. Thank you guys so much, you know who you are, thank you.

#aboutspead #i dont usually share this much #but i cant describe how much this means to me #i cant begin to explain it in any right way #positivity #selfhelp