#absinthe rambles

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Some days I have to remind myself that I am not legally required to write a fic from point A to Z.

But that I'm allowed to write whatever scene is tickling my fancy. That I can write *The One Scene* that's been in my mind for days.

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AU Time! Fluff abound! Roxas continually surprising Axel by making the first move.

Childhood friends Roxas and Axel, slowly and separately realizing that they have more than friendly feelings towards each other. Axel plans and plots for nearly a month before finally working up the courage.

He takes Roxas's hand, opens his mouth, only for Roxas to ask him out first.

It sets the tone for the entire relationship.

Their first kiss? Axel waits and waits. He's not sure if Roxas is ready, and then he wants it to be the absolute perfect moment. Roxas surprises him with a cozy date for his birthday and then surprises him again at the end of the night by kissing him.

Roxas is the first one to use a pet name. He calls Axel his dearest one night at the end of a date. Axel nearly passes out from the sweetness.

Axel is the first to hint at the word love, but Roxas says it first. It comes out one day after they've been arguing over something mundane. Roxas throws up his hands and says something like 'I swear, I'd hate you if I didn't love you so much.' Axel freezes in place and has a moment of 'you... love me?' Roxas rolls his eyes. Yes, he loves Axel... even if he likes to put salt on his watermelon.

After a few years together, Axel's been searching for apartments. One that would fit both him and Roxas. Two bedrooms, so he doesn't feel like he's pushing the blond. But before he can propose the idea, Roxas comes over one evening with his laptop and dozens of tabs open, both houses and apartments. And before Axel can even choke out a surprised question, Roxas asks if they want to get a place together.

After dozens of nights of cuddling on the couch and carrying Roxas to his own bedroom, Roxas appears in his doorway a few minutes after being put to bed, and asks if he can join Axel. It's never explicitly discussed, but Roxas sleeps in his room after that night, and soon it becomes 'their room.'

Axel picks out a ring and keeps it tucked in his pocket at every waking moment, waiting for the perfect moment to propose to Roxas. He thinks that the time might be right one night when they're cuddled up on the couch. But before he can go for the ring in his pajama pocket, Roxas pulls out his own ring and asks, 'Wanna be stuck together forever?' Axel cries. He absolutely cries.

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I am reminded of my southern roots when I look at the recipe cards and see phrases like:

Add ___ to taste

Cook until done

A list of spices with zero measurements whatsoever.

Scribbled notes in the margins that are passive aggressively underlined (I use ___ instead)

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Roxas defos has Axel wrapped round his finger

Absolutely. Axel is this absolutely smitten, doting man. All Roxas has to do is say 'I want that,' even jokingly, and Axel will buy whatever it is. Roxas says he wants to go to an event and Axel has tickets within days. At home all Roxas has to do is hold out his arms and he's being swept up into Axel's arms.

Roxas is also pretty sure if he told Axel to jump that he would respond 'how high?' probably after he already jumped once.

Roxas pretends like he's tolerating it. He sighs dramatically when Axel holds his hand in public. But Axel's doting secretly (maybe not so secretly) makes him really happy.

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Whelp. I may have no idea what's really going on... but I'm already in love just from the intro.

Hope you brats are happy.

<3

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Today has gone something like:

Ok! We should edit today. [watches diorama crafting videos for 2+ hours] Edit. [Makes up an entirely new AU] Edit! [Writes 5k words for an unrelated AU] I said edit! [Spends an hour looking up plaid dresses] Edit!!! [Reworks the magic system in *another* AU]

*Sigh* Ok, maybe later then.

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Today's post of things that live rent free in my mind:

Sometimes Axel sings Tiny Dancer to Roxas when they dance around the living room late at night. His voice cracks on the high notes but he goes for them anyways because it makes Roxas laugh. Which makes up for Roxas smacking him on the arm for calling him tiny.

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Have this stupid line while I work on asks and WIPs

"Have your pompous cocoa. I'll be over here with my mini marshmallows."