there's a god awful shitty feeling // accel
She's just a little bit overwhelmed........ ok maybe more than just a little..... and unfortunately it seems like the whole facility knows it (or at least that's what she already assumes and it stresses her out more than she'd like to admit). It's kind of a shame, really. She never wanted first impressions to be like this......especially not her own!! Now everyone must think she's a spineless clown....and maybe they're not too far off the mark. She has always been more than a little paranoid after all. The anxiety likes to grip her struggling heart and she gives in almost immediately.
Ah...well! She's been trying to be better at that! Though honestly being here at the facility doesn't help! Not at all! There's too many variables! Too many twists and turns! Too many possibilities! She feels bad for her partner -- he doesn't deserve this anxiety. It's her burden to bear and hers alone but whenever she tries to harness it in, the harder it is to control.
Maybe it's just not meant to be after all..... She just hopes Accel will understand..... or at least not hate her too much!
She's sweating as she steps up to her room where she'll be spending.....how long? Forever??? That leaves something heavy in her chest, pushed up against her heart, as knuckles knock and fingers open the door. "H-hello?" But as soon as she takes a step in, she's falling forward, face first, through the threshold.