the dentist is sensory hell. i doubt i could get through an appointment without dissociating every 5 seconds
first off, the uncomfortable, awkward small talk and the pressure to mask to be a kind and polite person TM
next- feeling the sharp hooks in your mouth? someone else brushing your teeth? evil
the SOUND of metal in your mouth? of the whirr of the brush? gross
the water pressure thing? the sucky tube? the toothpaste which is the grittiest feeling ever while also grody flavored? i hate it in my mouth
AND i’m doing everything in my power to be as still as possible, keep my tongue from interfering with their work, and listening to their directions the best i can. it’s so much energy, it’s exhausting
and all of that for what. i hate how sharp my teeth are afterwards, was it all really necessary?? now my tongue is getting numb just by getting stabbed by my sharp teeth
i hate how much i can’t control. i don’t even know where to start on accommodations- i just don’t want to go. i deserve so many gold stars for behaving for today’s appointment