#sensory issues

[callmequinny]

Autism sensory shit is so stupid and so ASS!! There was a single fiber of something in the back of the nape of my shirt and I shit you not, it bothered me more than my cat mauling my arm for talking to her incorrectly (its fine i had a tone)

[argentcochon]

im ripping tags out of clothing you didn’t even know were there

[wrongdose]

I feel pathetic when I accidentally whine to my boyfriend. Throwing a temper tantrum over pants 😴

[the-burned-library]

I think I'm genuinely starting to despise being autistic. I hate having a stupid fucking meltdown because I accidentally bit the inside of my mouth and it hurt. My teeth hurt so bad all the fucking time and that keeps causing meltdowns too. I dont wanna fucking do this anymore I want to slit my fucking throat. I want a different brain so fucking bad.

[onlineuser2001]

you dont realize how much of modern life is loud until you develop a sensory issue that makes it unbearable for you to be in common social settings. most settings include a speaker for music or too many humans that cause loudness. ok you can avoid places that are packed with people but. suddenly the spaces to meet people and socialize are non accessible and you really start to see how loudness is EVERYWHERE. do we REALLY need a speaker blasting music at a creative meet up ??? do we need 5 different speakers at an outdoor food event? or a small café?? a meet up picnic???? at the mall the restaurant???? like i get that it makes the atmosphere better and less awkward but it really drives people who might have sensory issues away from so many social settings, and thus isolating them... :( i wish this world wasnt so ableist.

[ruthniss]

One thing I don't see much about is sensory seeking Autistics (which I mostly am). 

It  seems I hear a lot obout sensory issues going the other way, and I do experience that to an extent. But my brain's constant need for input is wearing me out today so I wanted to talk about it, even to the void.

I can't have the same meal twice in a row, even things I really like. So say we have pizza for lunch, I will eat it the next day but it won't be my dinner. To a certain extent, I can't have the same meal too many times in a row as far as days go, or I will burn out on it and won't want it again for a long time. The best example I have for this is that the only way my mom would make salmon is lemon pepper, and my dad was Catholic and doesn't liek white fish so it was either some tuna dish or lemon pepper salmon every Friday in Lent. I then didn't eat lemon pepper anything for a decade.

I also very much enjoy spicy and sour things. I love to try new foods. This is great, mind you, but like meal plannig would be easier if I could just eat ramen every lunch without being afraid it would be the BAD FOOD if I have it too often. I solve this by getting multiple TYPES of ramen and that helps. (Ramen isn't great usually but I have POTS so the extra salt is actually good for me).

But as far as the downsides...

1)I almost always have a song stuck in my head. It's like jukebox echolalia IDK. Right now it's "Where Have All the Cowboys Gone?" Because I made a joke to myself when I read something a few days ago that was like "where are all the ____?" (IDK what we were asking where were, now).

2) I can't just sit doing nothing/ with my own thoughts. I can meditate but then it is like focusing on my breath? But otherwise I have to crochet/read/listen to or watch something/ do a word search/ play a game (or a combo of these). This can be exhausting with my brain fog. I can't concentrate but my brain is like I must!

3) Falling asleep is a nightmare. Sleepcasts can help but usually I tell myself a story to fall asleepo because it is some sort of input? All with my sound machine chirping in the background. (Frogs and crickets).

I guess that is all I have for now, yipee yo, yippe yay.

[sagebriarspoets]

I've been wearing denim jeans for so long I can't even imagine wearing other stuff anymore. I see people in flowy pants or polyester or leggings or whatever and I just think, "wow, they are so much stronger than I could ever be, I hope I grow up to be just like them"

[ineffablehaemogoblin]

dogs jumping up on me isn't fun sensory-wise so i tend to freeze up which means everyone who doesn't know me well and encounters me with a dog thinks i'm scared of them lmao