#adi things

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I know that I'm toxic I know that I'm caustic And if I don't stop it Then nobody will

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Misery loves company And company loves more More loves everybody else But hell is others

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FFXIVWrite Day 2 - Bolt

Baby, I just wanna be with you

Baby, you hit me like a bolt from the blue

- Meg Myers - A Bolt From the Blue

Etienne reflects in writing:

Was it on a sunny beach or in a long drunken conversation in the public baths or the walled-in garden yard? Poems point to a particular moment, not a gathering of them. I’d like to say there was a moment it hit me, a moment we smiled and there was such frisson, but I was obsessed with being coy and pretending I wasn’t falling for him. It built up over time, a gathering of strands that I braided into a cord, and then I required courage to throw it out to him. I usually say the first moment was when he made me laugh - that was the moment I knew I liked him, and that was significant because I had been feeling like truly, I didn’t like anyone lately, friend or potential lover. I realized that I wanted to enjoy myself, and that is a powerful thing. I have been enjoying myself since then!

You know I think that love poetry is bollocks, right? I like reading it, but I can’t write it for shite, it’s too complex. It’s one thing to be sentimental to your lover’s face, but quite another to sit and write a poem. It doesn’t feel right, not when you can just take their hand or touch or kiss him or ... you know, all the rest. It is true, when I see him across a room, if I see him before he sees me - I feel a jolt through my body. Excitement. Not that kind of excitement, nothing so crass. Like how you feel at the beginning of a vacation, when you’ve no work left on your mind and you’re excited for - swimming, and kissing, and lovemaking, and delicious food. So I don’t think I had that levin-strike moment early on, but rather... I’m all over in pinpricks from the levin in the air all the time with him!

Adi reflects in person:

“What the hell kind of question is that, and is it your business? No, it isn’t, but, I wonder if it’s the time he...” Adi raised a hand to his cheek, and shrugged his shoulders. “Honestly, the first time I saw him - after he dropped the miqo’te glamour, not that he wasn’t perfectly handsome that way... I just... I wanted to know more about him. Does that count? I’m not good at that mushy stuff. Not to anyone but him. Shut up. Go away.”

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I’m not brittle

Well, maybe just a little.

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King of Pain.🖤

Prince of Jellyfish. 🎐

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Junelezen #16 - Forest

Adi Lamoureaux (he/him)

“The Shroud is my home. I’m at peace here.”

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Junelezen #18 - Magic

Adi Lamoureaux (he/him) - conjury

Etienne Clairemont (they/them) - thaumaturgy

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More dark days are coming.