A bit of another life update, this one is more serious so tw for abuse, violence, and depression.
Sooo my after years of abuse and mental torture my mother and I had a huge fight, resulting in me having to flee covered in blood, and she kicked me out and said I’m dead to her :)
And my only other “close” sibling is brainwashed by her and says I’m dead to them as well :)
I have nowhere to go, no one to really rely on, and I’m very close to losing my job from the general depression and lack of wanting to do anything at all :)
And on top of that I am off my meds and don’t know when I will be getting them back :)
It is so hard not to internalize all of this and feel like I am the monster and not her who has been abusing me since I was born, but I truly don’t know what to do or where to go from here and I’ve never been at a deeper low in my entire life :)