#aerobrain

[aerobrain]

[aerobrain]

[aerobrain]

***, 2021(?)

[aerobrain]

i'll step up again

and give this a try

to create something lovely

you are now the great fog in my vision

but you can keep hanging out

i like you here

let's try it

[aerobrain]

all words are terrifying

all thoughts are lost

how does this work again?

[aerobrain]

awake in a former home

the empty glass at my bedside

debris of pistachio in my beard

sunrise

shake away the sleep

i try not to look at my phone in the morning

it’s easier now

my mind is at peace

now that she’s gone

i’m a flannel you’ve been loaned

but i’m the one you keep

it’s ok to forget that you’ve still got me

but you do, you do

don’t be afraid to wear me

when the leaves turn to dirt

unaware of my path

the sun’s coming up in my rearview

new populations ahead

[aerobrain]

i’ve developed a gag reflex to you

spontaneous evolution of sorts

i’ve stopped labeling my feelings

to take away their power

to return to form

to evolve beyond the promise

liars will come with sledgehammers

sensationalists will follow

i will not be defined by you 

i am behind the wheel again

blasting Emergency & I

speeding into morning

while the world awakes

i will be moving forward

forward!!!!!!

for fucking ever!!!!!!!!!!!!

[aerobrain]

i couldn't fall asleep sober tonight

as hard as i tried

sleep with yourself tonight

make love to your memories

if they're still even there

if they matter enough

it seems as if your mental trash has been long been taken out

while i drag, i rot from the inside

just imagine

i'd love to have no idea who you are

give anything not to recognize you

give anything to take it all back

at the end of the journey

you'd rather leave with nothing than leave with me

if i could take everything back

you'd still be the same

so why did i even try?

remember those last four hours

remember our last testament

unable to perceive your love,

i still found you circling my head

give anything not to think of you

give anything to stay away from the start

at the end of the day

you'd rather have approval from many than love in a few

when you decide you deserve love

don't ask me

stay away

because i don't have the strength to say no

maybe that makes me the toxic one

all of the street lights are out

and the sun's coming down

driving straight towards the horizon

the passing cars are blinding now

we are only dust now

lost in the vastness of repression

i am navigating international waters

but i will make it back east

i can't be what you think you need

what a shame