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So excited that there's a new The Gazette album coming this year. Obviously there is a sadness there too. Mixed emotions. But, in general, I'm glad they continued.

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Over a week into the medication. I'm somewhat "grounded" by it - I have little energy. Not even sure if I've got it in me to walk to the park. Walking around the shops, it reminded me of how I felt after a heavy dose of C-19 last year. Being confined like this is threatening to tank my mood. August is just draining away. When I push hard to break the equilibrium, I always feel like life punishes me for it. This is like a mini winter simulator. It's too much of them. Only one trip away from their all consuming chaotic egocentric energy this year. It's not enough. And summer is dying fast.

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Every now and then I have a moment where I think, maybe I've been super naive about not making any income from my artistic output - namely photography and my writing.

As someone that could benefit hugely from any extra income in terms of changing my life circumstances, I feel like maybe I've overlooked that. I mean, I've investigated before and, in terms of photography, I've come up against a bleak and hopeless market, where everyone is a now a photographer, the socials are overflowing with images and AI is there is the background now too. But then... I'll hear stories where it seems people have made money from that, and then I sort of panic, thinking I've not given this enough thought.

Nothing puts the fear into me more, than thinking I've been chucking away opportunities that could ultimately help to, literally, change my life.

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There should be a Japanese remake of Labyrinth where Kamijo plays the Goblin King, and his music would feature too.

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Oooh really like that new Deftones song. Album is dropping this month if I remember correctly.

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My main blog has a pretty sizeable following, and yet it amazes me how little uptake there is on some of the photography I reblog from smaller blogs. It wasn't that long ago that I'd find such blogs and think to myself "get ready", as reblogging their photos would get them far more exposure. I even had people message me, and thank me for finding them and promoting them, essentially.

If a five+ year old blog that consists of 90% trees and greenery, gets very little uptake of imagery that is... well, trees and greenery, then it just feels maybe the peak tumblr nature era has passed.

Unless I've just lost my power. Which is a shame, because I liked being in a position to go 'you deserve to be seen too' and literally being able to make that happen.

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Late to the party... by about 142 years.

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I fancy making a top ten list of my favourite Sabbath songs. Although, I'm going to keep it strictly to Ozzy fronted Sabbath. This might be tough, or not, we'll see.