#afterdarkthoughts

[neonlust-hub]

[cece-lt]

#LateNightThoughts (Relationship Problems)

Being that I would love to get married one day & knowing that my boyfriend doesn’t ever want to get married is kinda like…hello what are we doing then.??? It frustrates me because I love him & would love to spend the rest of my life with him & just knowing he don’t feel the same hurts. I don’t know if I should stay & see what happens with our relationship or if I should just leave & focus on myself till the right man comes into my life & wants to make me his wife 🤔😩😔

[princessasaige]

Even the strongest people and the most beautiful of souls can be crushed. Just remember that when you want to say something hurtful to someone, this is the visual of the effect your words can have. Your words alone can cut someone deeper than any blade ever would.

[princessasaige]

Me vs You

If I really wanted to hurt you, I'd use the same words that you used to destroy me. Those words created my self doubt; made me think I wasn't worth anything; made me believe I didn't deserve to exist. The thing is though I could never do that; stoop so low. As to make someone so hollow; feel so low and drained that they no longer feel as if they're alive. That they just exist, and that is all. I will not mentally nor emotionally obliterate you with my words; but I will pity you for how much you must hate yourself, enough to make you think it's okay to make others hate themselves as well.

[krizzyville]

Sleepless nights

I stay up past 4am each night with a million different thoughts running at the speed of light in my head. They range from happy thoughts such as the future I hold with my best friend, I can’t wait till the day I wake up to his side every single day. To sad thoughts like the fact that if I want to be near my family I have to pack all my belongings & move along with my parents & leave my home, best friends & half of my heart behind. Being without either one kills me & I lay in bed right now with tears running down my cheeks because my best friends aren’t just random people; they somehow became my family, they’re my rock. They’ve saved me from my demons & I don’t think I can survive without having the privilege of hugging them when I’m at my lowest & highest parts of my life. Yet again I’m in love, I want to have a life filled with happiness with my fiancé, I want to enjoy my grandma & grandpa while they’re still around..I want to be with the family I only see for a month out of the entire year. I wish I could split myself into two. Keep one half in Michigan with my second family/super glue bulletproof rocks & the other half in Mexico with my family. I’m so broken I feel so hopeless.

Either way, I'll be heartbroken & no one can ever fill the huge gap that's going to be missing from my heart.

[but-makeitquick]

But make it quick

Shoot me

[struggling-ambivert]

It’s not you, it’s me

I loved him, he loved me I thought he was handsome, he thought I was alluring He really loved me!, but I didn't love me How tragic

[lizmagill1]

Thinking about sleep... We purposely put ourselves down to lay limp to fully let our brains do whatever it is they do while we lay unconscious... Whether we remember the next day or not. And its actually necessary, to let ourselves give up control for a few hours... Amazing