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[dragongirltongue]

trick or treat‽

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[ashymag]

Pink💕

[dreamyichigo]

Magical Girl Sumi and her Dark Prince (he’s escorting her to kick some ass) 🌹

gift for my secret santa in the akesumi server @oracle-nila

[ashymag]

This is real, this me

[let-it-be-what-it-is]

Soulmates

For some people, it takes a really long time to find a soulmate. Someone who you just naturally understand. Every mannerism mimcs yours, something you were always unconfident about but have now found peace and love in. I was lucky to have met my soulmate shortly before Halloween 2013. I was 19 years old. And I became the luckiest girl in the world on November 7th, 2013. We started dating. I can't even describe that feeling. The one where there is literally nothing to hide from this person and you know they feel the same. Life is such a blessing during that time.

Unfortunately, sometimes, you can lose a soulmate as well. Things happen, they need their space. Or maybe you need your space. We're only human after all. But whatever happens, you still respect and love each other enough to understand and move forward. Things will hurt and be a little weird for a while. You'll get a little lonely. But that love never ever fades. And because of that, with time and strength, you gain the best of friend you could have ever imagined. You go shopping with them for gifts for their new girlfriend. You still share any secrets you may have. What you have at that moment, is pure. It's real.

On February 25, 2018, my soulmate was murdered. Shot and killed outside of the gym he went to every day. Now, they didn't release the name of the victim for 3 days later. But within moments of hearing what had happened on Sunday, the moment I heard that the victim was a 27 year old, white, male... I felt it. Or actually, I felt nothing. My entire life had just crumbled. There's absolutely no way that we as human beings are meant to be in that horrible state of mind. A state of nothingness.

The other day I looked in the mirror and I can honestly say that I did not recognize the individual looking back at me. Something within my spirit and soul is gone. And it's him, I know it's him. And yes of course he is always on my mind and in my heart but he was so much more than a thought or an idea. He was a part of me. That part of me is gone.

I miss that man every single waking moment. I have his clothes, the ring he gave me telling me about our past, present, and future together, all the silly little gifts he gave me... his memory is everywhere which is beautiful and amazing and such a blessing. But let me ask you this: Have you ever met someone who you KNEW you were meant to spend the rest of your life with and knew they felt the exact same way and you were on that path and then they just, disappeared? Well I have, and it's fucking hard and if I'm being honest... I don't know what to do anymore. I've been strong my entire life but right now, this event has truly broken me. How do I put myself back together when the person who knows me the best, if not better, is no longer here?

I'm sorry, that is all.

-Allyson

I love you AKSM <3