No light, no light: Cassia + Alaric
Cassia whimpered as she felt the weight of the blonde girl crushing down on her stomach. A sharp pain in her head caused her vision to blur as she felt the cold liquid red run down her face. The wound was deep and she knew she was losing blood fast. The tip of the knife slowly pushing against the ball in her neck was slowly chocking her.
“What did you think Eight, you could just fuck around with your mentor for a few days while the rest of us trained? You’re pathetic. And to think, you probably thought he loved you. Look where that left you.” The blonde girl spat. Cassia watched as the girl rose her arm, only being able to stare at the crimson stained blade as it rose above her. Then, as quick as a bullet, she watched the knife fall down upon her chest…
Cassia screamed as she jolted awake. Dreaming. She was just dreaming. She exhaled as she pushed her onyx curls out of her face. This was the first vivid dream she had had of what she imagined the arena to be like. As she imagined her worst fear. Death.
She swung her legs over the bed and walked over to the bathroom. She was in no state to go back to sleep, and she figured a nice warm shower could help calm her nerves. She turned on the hot water and allowed it to run for a short time while she undressed. She stepped into the inviting glass door, grinning as the steaming hot water poured onto her face.
She stood completely still, wishing she could stay in that position, free from all thoughts, for eternity.
Her mind slipped back to earlier in the day, how she felt completely vulnerable to her bubbling emotions, allowing them to cloud her judgment. In what mindset did she believe it was okay? What she had done. Especially to someone for whom she had loathed just hours before. Maybe she really was pathetic just as her subconscious had been telling her. How could she allow herself to even become attached to anyone in these games, and certainly not on such a personal level?
What made this man special. This grown adult, twelve years older than she, whom she barely even knew…and worse, she could be completely making this up. Blowing something little way out of proportion.
But something deep within, back in the corners of her mind, told her this was not a one-sided feeling. When she leaned in the first time, it was an impulsive, spur of the moment move. But he didn’t push away, no he did much worse. He looked her in the eyes with complete consciousness and understanding of what he was doing, and brought her back. But this was not as confused and unsure as hers was. No. this held a form of intimacy. Held beauty.
Cassia felt a new sense of water fall upon her cheeks. Water not coming from the shower head above, but from the corners of her eyes. She tried to contain herself for a short while but soon burst into tears. She fell back against the side of the glass wall and let her body slowly crumble to the ground of the shower.
Holding her head in her hand she wept, allowing her mind to return to the nightmare she had just surpassed. The warm water pelted heavily against her knees as she drew in her legs to her chest and curled up against the corner of the shower. She felt so weak, so useless, as her own mind reminded her of her weary odds of winning in the arena. How she allowed her emotions to consume her rather than keeping her head in the game, ready to train. She felt such anger towards herself fill inside and she pounded her fist against the side of the shower and let out a pent up scream so loud the glass shook. She just kept screaming and screaming trying to let out the emotions she held inside. Waiting, for a light to arise in the darkness of her mind.







